My father is now gone
Mood:  sad
Topic: my father has died
I really don't know what to do. My father has passed away on november 13th and ever since then I feel so lost I try to stay strong for my family but the simple fact is that every decision I have made in my life has been for the approval and simple gratification of knowing that I make my father proud has been my drive for it. Know that I am making the decisions to help out my mother and help her do the things that my father has always made the decisions on just makes me seem like that I can never live up to the standard of making the most beneficial decisions is very stressful to me. I just don't want to let my mother down and I try to research all the decisions that I help her make for her future but I am so scared that I might possibly make the wrong decision based on the fact of lack of common knowledge in certain subjects that my father knew as just a common knowledge. anyways what I am looking here for is just someone that has possibly been through a similar situation that can relate in the subject and could voice opinions on the matter and share thoughts...well anyways if you have been through a similar situation I would appreciate any voice in the matter that anyone has to offer.even if it is a unique situation I would find the opinion helpful. You can e-mail me at chrisjana75@hotmail.com with anything you have to say