Friends
Friends come in all forms to a heart, Friends are someone whom you can cry, laugh, smile,hurt and die with. Friends are the bond that makes life better,
A friend is someone who grows old with you in all life's pathways holds your hand when you dont ask, puts a hand on your shoulder before you fall to steady you, A friend is someone who never judges always listens and wipes your tears as they fall,
A friend is someone who knows your deepest secrets In one's life the friends you make that are dearest are the ones who never ask what happened but instead smile and say I love you... Friends in my life know sometimes I may fall or they may fall but
in time of the fall we always manage to catch the other before the fall becomes fatal...


Lady Sil

Mental Illness
When you awake each new day, do you look in the mirror and ask does this word "mental illness" change my form, Is this such a bad thing that I cannot be who I want to be, I am me, no matter what
words form, my illusion is still the same, I live as me with feelings that are not sometimes appropriate for the world but to me they are me, how I deal with these feelings is what makes me, sometimes I can live and feel everything and then sometimes there is to much feeling and I have to shut down and then restart, when I restart will I be
looked upon as the same before I had to shut down, in my world I struggle and the struggles sometimes overtake but when I overtake the
struggles I can feel me again...so many ups and downs if just once I was taken as me when I looked in the mirror I would see not a word or a diagnosis but a human, a face that can smile, laugh, cry , hurt, love and be loved... a mind that can accomplish great things for I am me and me is who I will be not a diagnosis but a human with the same
rights and feelings as the reflection looking back at me.


Lady Sil

Unconditonal Love
Can we in our hearts in our society love unconditional, First to do this you must lose something so dear to you that your heart feels the
loss. Can we every attain lost love, we have to first heal ourselves for once love is present the smallest amount still lies within our hearts but we must remember why we fell in love and now put in place that word unconditional. We fell in love with a heart because it in someway touched us, now we have to move to a higher level and take
that heart as they are, unconditionally, we have to love never ending love with our hearts...we must heal our minds and bodies so that when
the day does come when lost love is ready again we open our hearts and become one unconditionally thru out the later years of our lives and when we die our hearts can truly know we loved unconditional.


Lady Sil

Once you have felt Love
Love is a rollcoaster of mixed emotions, The thrill of the ride is the curves thrown in to take our breath away but in love it's those same curves that throw us off track. Can you ever change your heart to not love once you have loved? Once you have felt love it never leaves you, in times of conflict
or hurt, we reach down deep and pull of those thoughts of the warmness we felt once we felt loved.
Time heals most wounds when once felt love takes a curve, it's getting back on the ride for the next curve and holding on tighter, loving deeper and never letting go.. Once felt love never leaves you but gives you a place to go when
this ride comes to an end and all you have left is the memories of how this ride began, a nice warm place before the curves...The thrill it gave us and the speeding heartfelt beat can never be taken away...always remember no one ride is the same but keep that once felt love and the next curve you will regain the feeling you had when you once felt love...


Lady Sil
July 04

Thoughts of Winter
Cold breezes blow in the wet snowflakes falling gently on my face. Winds whipping thru the street like a voice whispering in the nite.
Christmas lights dance on the white powder making shadows that
mesmerize my soul, like your voice calling my name...

Radiators blowing steam to release the fury of the heat that so
warmly wraps its arms around you like a soft furry blanket...


Feather blankets pulled out to caress our bodies in the nite...
our feel good memories of a time when innocence was in our heart.

Wood burning, making a glow, casting a happy glow in the nite...

Christmas tree decorated in the corner shining happy moments of
warm hearts..

Christmas music playing softly, our hearts and hands together as
one swaying slowly with each beat taking our hearts and souls
making us for a moment in time as one....


Lady Sil

Baby
I remember the day you talked to me it is one day i will never forget. I thought we were just good friends talking about life's problems but to my surprise i was told you had inquired about me. My heart soared i never had a clue from that day forward I paid closer attention to the details and soon found there was a spark that had been lit. With each turn in life you were my steadfastness with every moment you were always there to lift me up and soothe my soul. You have given me a new outlook on life a new hope a new reason to climb higher in life. Your voice when i am in conflict can calm and soothe me like no other can, Your ways of gentleness guide me to your heart like no other has ever been able to do. A years journey is now almost complete one more hill then together we will climb and sit on the mountain top and watch the world from our view. My baby you are my life thank you for reaching out and touching me showing me the love that only you can give soon we will know what true bliss is for an eternity. All the struggles and doubts life has handed us will soon be washed out, we will have overcome many things to make our mountain top our own. Baby you are my baby look forward now becuase no backward glances are needed. My baby i love you so our hearts beat upon the journey we have started. So baby sit with me on our mountain top and view our world from our sets. My view is awesome is yours?



Lady sil

Life
Pain overcomes the body without an answer to what it is, your life revolves around the pain instead of life being lived to the fullest. Why cant the answers come, why do i hurt so? One day coming to i have the answer i have been seeking the pain that
was my life is now but a few scars of rememberance.
My life now will change the person i am sorta died like the massive tissue that overtook my body, I can now enjoy things in life once again a newness has been given to me. How will i accept the challange of this enormous gift? Will it change my life? My life will now give me fullfillment instead of pain and anger for those moments i lost i cannot get back but for the moments that were just given to me i now can shape and make my own. Hours will not be hours to me anymore the day will be mine to make it as long as i want it to. My time was once again handed to me how will i use it is up to me
once again to live the youthfulness that has been taken or crawl and hide. My youthfulness seems to overtake me and i soar like an eagle waiting my nest way over the mountain.


Lady Sil

Life
Pain overcomes the body without an answer to what it is, your life revolves around the pain instead of life being lived to the fullest. Why cant the answers come, why do i hurt so? One day coming to i have the answer i have been seeking the pain that
was my life is now but a few scars of rememberance.
My life now will change the person i am sorta died like the massive tissue that overtook my body, I can now enjoy things in life once again a newness has been given to me. How will i accept the challange of this enormous gift? Will it change my life? My life will now give me fullfillment instead of pain and anger for those moments i lost i cannot get back but for the moments that were just given to me i now can shape and make my own. Hours will not be hours to me anymore the day will be mine to make it as long as i want it to. My time was once again handed to me how will i use it is up to me
once again to live the youthfulness that has been taken or crawl and hide. My youthfulness seems to overtake me and i soar like an eagle waiting my nest way over the mountain.


Lady Sil

The Eve
Tonite is the eve of devastation so many wounded hearts touched with horror, candle lightings to remember on that nite to make those who were taken shine again and those that were left behind to see
that they didnt forget. What shall i do this eve so many newscast broadcasting the pain of the eve before how shall i remember what shall i do with these feelings, I wasnt there but i felt it, i didnt
lose anyone but i cried. I watched the sun go down and thought how far have we come since then, our hearts are still heavy but with time the sun again will shine where those towers once stood, souls of
those who were lost will always remain as guardian angels there. Around the world for one day devastation did attack us but we rose up held hands lit candles and held one another. One year later those who were lost that day will rise up in sky and join hands and sprinkle peace on us left below the healing will start and each year on that day they will sprinkle peace around the world.


Lady Sil

What Do I Feel
I stop and ask myself what are feelings and how do they affect me, how do they change me, Do they mold who i am? When i am happy I soar but when you look deeper in me you will see when I am sad i soar also. I soar with emotions whether it be high or low, good or bad. Hold your hand on my heart feel the pulse it beats whether I am happy or sad. Touch me feel what I do, feel me the real me the one who
explodes with passon ignites with Dominance softens with a romance. Hold me calm the raging storms deep inside me waiting to burst forth but to what where would the storm go, which direction would it take,
would it engulf me, swallow me or would it burst forth with such energy that I would ride it for years, So before you say you know what i feel touch my heart and feel the pulse of my heart is there a
storm or is there a calm before the storm.

Lady Sil