Friday, May 16, 2003It's been a little while since the last update, so I thought I'd provide some fresh material for you to comment on. ;)
Things have been pretty good recently. If you read my other journals, you know that I won a scholarship recently. I've been doing financial aid stuff recently--looking through the forms, researching lenders, etc. I've got it narrowed it down to about four banks, and hopefully I'll be able to discuss them with my dad soon.
I've been posting a lot of quizzes in my Blurty, but I've decided to use cut tags to hide them instead of displaying them directly on the journal. That way, if some people are annoyed by the constant quizzes, they can just skip them and go on to the next entry without a big ol' picture being on the front page of the journal.
I really love online journaling, and it possibly helps me to be a better writer, too. It's sort of a habit now to update my blogs, and I used to do journals for English class last semester, too. Really, if I think about it, I've been journaling since about second grade (as far as I can remember), when my teacher had us do journals (similar to online ones) in which we talked about our latest activites, etc. So it's a pretty ingrained habit. No wonder writing comes naturally.
Monday, May 12, 2003I think I'm pretty much over Brian. I miss the way we talked, though. Not as much (I'm getting used to not talking to him as much), but I just.. wish it were still there, you know? We had such interesting conversations, and we flirted so much. It's not the flirting I miss now, it's simply talking to him and being regarded as his friends and stuff. Maybe I'm overreacting; maybe he's just busy. But I felt like he would always make time for me before. Now he's always doing something else.
On a more positive note, I'm doing pretty well now. I'm sorry I havent' been writing in this journal as much, but it's because I only write my most private things in here--things I don't want the whole world to know. Things like that don't come up very often, so, in the meantime, you can go to my Blurty and now, my Livejournal! Yay! ;) http://www.livejournal.com/users/ladyfelicity/ is the URL (it's pretty much the same as my Blurty). I think I'm going to neglect my Livejournal in favor of my Blurty because my Blurty has more features and privileges. I'm going to see if I can change the style of it now, seeing as how I'm an Early Adopter and supposedly have more privileges. ;) Any suggestions as to a layout?
"May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
And the rain fall soft upon the fields.
Until we meet again, my friend,
Until we meet again
May God hold you in the palm of His hand."
Music: Something I Can Never Have--Nine Inch Nails
Friday, May 09, 2003I just now read an interesting journal on Livejournal.. it belongs to pottersginny, and it's interesting because it reminds me of when I was Christian. Somehow.. the narrow-mindedness of it all stirkes me. I'm not saying that all Christians are narrow-minded. But she is, I think. And I just remember how stifling it was for me to be narrow-minded, too.
It's hard for me to talk about this without offending someone, I guess. But I have to say that I really don't like Christianity. It's like.. an ex-boyfriend, almost. waystereotypical ex-boyfriend whom you have bad feelings about? That's the kind of experience I had with it. It left a bitter taste in my mouth. Not only that, but I disagree with it on theological and ethical grounds, too. I sincerely dont' believe in most of its tenets anymore.
Anyway, most of you will probably agree with me anyway.. as far as I know, no Christians are reading this journal now (hopefully--not because I'm discriminating against Christians, but because I hope I know everyone who's reading this, and no one, as far as I know, who's allowed to read it is a Christian).
Anyway. I remember baking and bringing a whole bunch of cookies to people in hopes of "converting" them. Pretty wacky, huh? But it was a fun experience. Good way to get popularity, no? Not that it helped much--most of the people I gave cookies to ended up moving away anyway. ;) Which reminds me. I need to call Adison.
Tired--need to go to bed. G'night, ya'll. (Why do I always sign off with "ya'll?" I'm not a Southerner. ;))
Wednesday, May 07, 2003Bettina
~ Elizabeth ~
~ meaning ~
~ motivation ~
~ character ~
~ feelings ~
~ intelligence ~
~ spiritual ~
~ nature ~
~ inherent ~
Sunday, May 04, 2003I'm talking to David now... he's so changed. I'm discussing that with another friend now. It's kind of sad... it's like, sort of, seeing someone corrupted, in a way. Though it's like, he did it to himself, so.. it's not like he "was corrupted." He corrupted himself. And he always had a dark side to him.. he just didn't let it show, I suppose. Maybe it's a good thing he's more "dark" now.. but, on the other hand, I kind of.. I dunno if "miss" is the right word, but more like, I am regretful that the old David isn't there.. because he was a really sweet, innocent guy, who seemed like he would do almost anything for his girlfriend or whatever...
Music: Kittie, "Paperdoll"
After reading this article in the newspaper about love and marriage, I'm wondering if I should select my partner on the basis of moral character and how closely his beliefs match mine. The article was about someone's grandparents, who had an "exemplary" and "wonderful" marriage (according to people other than the author) and who chose each other on the quality of the other's character rather than physical attractiveness. Both had homosexual tendencies, but they chose to marry anyway. They weren't physically attracted to each other, at least at first.
This seems like a great way to have a great marraige, don't you think? I like the idea. Comments are welcome.
OK. Everything should be set up. The only thing to set up now is possibly password protection, but I'm not sure if I'm going to do that. C'est la vie...
::feels satisfied:: I have finally done it! Mwahahahahaha...