April 1, 2004
its so much easier to move on when
the distance between is once again
growing and changing. I live in my
own little world, fearing hi and goodbye.
I miss everything so much. I only
want happiness, to not be lonely
without anyone else
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I'm so scared of what lies ahead
what I am going to make a mess of tomorrow
fear inspired by the past and memories
of the days that I didn't choose right.
Stupid mistakes, ridiculous reasons,
and it turns out to be all for naught
It seens every decision is the wrong one
and the more I try the more I hurt.
Not because of my personal pain, but
becaouse of the pain I cause in other's lives.
I am the problem, the burden, the mistake.
I am the cause of tears and heartbreak.
Behind me I see a trail of broken hearts,
broken lives, and none is my own.
While I live a carefree life,
there are those who I've affected for the worse
all around me. Exes who will not let go, parents
who are not together because they gave me life,
friends who have changed for the worse.
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