spring 2004

April 1, 2004

its so much easier to move on when

the distance between is once again

growing and changing. I live in my

own little world, fearing hi and goodbye.

I miss everything so much. I only

want happiness, to not be lonely

without anyone else

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I'm so scared of what lies ahead

what I am going to make a mess of tomorrow

fear inspired by the past and memories

of the days that I didn't choose right.

Stupid mistakes, ridiculous reasons,

and it turns out to be all for naught

It seens every decision is the wrong one

and the more I try the more I hurt.

Not because of my personal pain, but

becaouse of the pain I cause in other's lives.

I am the problem, the burden, the mistake.

I am the cause of tears and heartbreak.

Behind me I see a trail of broken hearts,

broken lives, and none is my own.

While I live a carefree life,

there are those who I've affected for the worse

all around me. Exes who will not let go, parents

who are not together because they gave me life,

friends who have changed for the worse.

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