
I want to tell you
how it hurts me inside.
the little voice screams at me
that if I don't do something
what results will be my fault.
But I try so hard to be perfect
to be all you want.
though I try to forget
and push away what I don't want to believe
I can't.
and when I think, it hurts,
the tears burn my eyes,
but not one of them will fall
no emotion escapes me
that would make you think
something is wrong
is it me?
I know I should express
but the cork was placed in the bottle years ago
when I found that emotions ruin.
if it is all held in,
no one is whe wiser.
i can be the perfect one.
the one someone wants to be with
I can be loved.
but is the pain worth it?
I have to lie to myself
because I am non-confrontational.
all I want is security.
I want to be able to trust you.