MY WORRIES

I want to tell you

how it hurts me inside.

the little voice screams at me

that if I don't do something

what results will be my fault.

But I try so hard to be perfect

to be all you want.

though I try to forget

and push away what I don't want to believe

I can't.

and when I think, it hurts,

the tears burn my eyes,

but not one of them will fall

no emotion escapes me

that would make you think

something is wrong

is it me?

I know I should express

but the cork was placed in the bottle years ago

when I found that emotions ruin.

if it is all held in,

no one is whe wiser.

i can be the perfect one.

the one someone wants to be with

I can be loved.

but is the pain worth it?

I have to lie to myself

because I am non-confrontational.

all I want is security.

I want to be able to trust you.