August 19, 2004
though the relationship seems great
there's really not much communication.
I don't really know you.
who you are and where you've been.
who is this person who lays next to me?
what's inside of the head of that man,
that man that knows me biblically?
you hold me sometimes,
but not enough.
you love me sometimes,
but not that way.
I let it go on
I made it this way,
but not exactly.
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I can't feel
I can't write
I lost
I gave in
My love was given
My sould was shaken
My heart was broken
My pen was taken
You took my heart
You lied to me
You broke my trust
You took all of me
Now it's over
Now we're done
Now I'm different
Now I can't be
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I want you.
I get the feeling
that you don't
want me.
what is it
that changes?
I want to be
your arm candy.
I want you
to show me off.
I want you to be
proud of me.
it used to be
everyday
you would
take me to be.
now I feel
like you don't
want to.
has something
changed?
I want to know.
Now we
sit
on the couch
you barely
touch me.
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It's almost
as if
you don't want
to touch me
you used to
want me,
show me
that you
wanted me.
you were
attracted
by something.
what changed?
have I
done something
wrong?
why
won't you
treat me like
you used to?
I'm the same
girl I was.
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why can't we be together?
whydon't I call?
I'll tell you.
when we met
you learned who I was
and for ten months
you respected me.
The you took who I was
and turned me into
who I am now
so I left,
I learned,
we tried,
we failed.
I changed.
and we arenot
who we were
for those months.
that time won't comeback
and I hate that.
Ican't be your friend
and I can't be your girl.
so what do you want me to do?
It hurts too bad
so I let go.