August 2004

August 19, 2004

though the relationship seems great

there's really not much communication.

I don't really know you.

who you are and where you've been.

who is this person who lays next to me?

what's inside of the head of that man,

that man that knows me biblically?

you hold me sometimes,

but not enough.

you love me sometimes,

but not that way.

I let it go on

I made it this way,

but not exactly.

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I can't feel

I can't write

I lost

I gave in

My love was given

My sould was shaken

My heart was broken

My pen was taken

You took my heart

You lied to me

You broke my trust

You took all of me

Now it's over

Now we're done

Now I'm different

Now I can't be

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I want you.

I get the feeling

that you don't

want me.

what is it

that changes?

I want to be

your arm candy.

I want you

to show me off.

I want you to be

proud of me.

it used to be

everyday

you would

take me to be.

now I feel

like you don't

want to.

has something

changed?

I want to know.

Now we

sit

on the couch

you barely

touch me.

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It's almost

as if

you don't want

to touch me

you used to

want me,

show me

that you

wanted me.

you were

attracted

by something.

what changed?

have I

done something

wrong?

why

won't you

treat me like

you used to?

I'm the same

girl I was.

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why can't we be together?

whydon't I call?

I'll tell you.

when we met

you learned who I was

and for ten months

you respected me.

The you took who I was

and turned me into

who I am now

so I left,

I learned,

we tried,

we failed.

I changed.

and we arenot

who we were

for those months.

that time won't comeback

and I hate that.

Ican't be your friend

and I can't be your girl.

so what do you want me to do?

It hurts too bad

so I let go.