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FALLING ANGEL <>

I'm telling you boy, Your heaven sent, Until you broke my heart THEN what could god have meant? You were such a perfect person,For the time that you were mine, Then when you were through you said "Hell with you",And left me there to cry. You kissed me like no others, And held me till the sun went down,Then one day you let me go,And I fell to the ground.You had that special something,That in nobody else can I find, But still that special something Makes me still want you and hurt inside.A best friend ,A hero and much more,You were my guardian angel,Until you let me hit the floor.Your words used to be so sweet and kind,Your eyes so full and seeing only me,Then your words were empty and cruel, And eyes so cold it made my soul freeze.Our silence used to be golden,Under the starry skies,Now your silence is deafeaningKilling me inside. My passion burning so strong Kept within my heart,Then the heart had shattered,And the fire spreading began to start.You used to calm me down,And help me when I cried.Now still you have my heart and the key,And have locked me up inside.Now you speak so violently,Your intent as sinful lies,Your love for me is gone away, The memory banished from time and space.What happened to my angel,Who came from up above?What happened to my angel,Who used to show me love? <>

FOREVER LOVE <>

Well be together till the end,Cause everybody needs a friend. When I have free time Im always with you Together we can always find something to do I used to come over every day, To be welcome made me feel good in a way. But now its changed and I dont know why, To say I dont miss you would be a lie. Im not as welcome anymore,When were together its a real bore. I miss going swimming with you and to the mall, Whos going to catch me if I start to fall. Without you beside me my worlds not the same,Its cold and boring and very lame. Ill always remember the finer days, When out in the sun we would lay.Friends forever we used to say,Is forever over or just delayed? <>

HERE I SIT <>

I sit by candlelight, thinking of you, I've dreamt of you every night, and all we could be and do. Here I sit, alone with sorrow thinking of only you, Waiting till tomorrow till again I will see you. Here I sit knowing that I have lost my chance, No feelings will be growing and here In lost in trance. Here I sit feeling, inside my heart is crying, My emotions and thoughts wheeling, inside my heart is dying For here I sit knowing, It wasn't just a shallow crush, And now my tears are flowing, cause I've cared for you so much. Maybe I shouldn't have shared my feelings , maybe thing would be Different and I wouldn't be involved in these dealings And my heart wouldn't have been lifted. But here I sit alone, dreaming of passion And to my friends I cry, it's become my usual fashion. Here I sit not fully coping Wishing we could make something start. Here I sit hoping, For a change in you heart. Here I sit knowing, of the love that we'd share, It would continue growing, into your eyes I'd stare. I haven't felt so strongly, in such a long time. It all comes so strangely, these twisted feelings of mine. I think I could forgive you for anything, just as long as you smiled. I know Id love you for everything, these feelings are no longer mild. Tears are building in my eyes, yet I will hold them back, Only the weak ones cry, but strength I sometimes lack. Or it's you, Its you I miss, it's you that doesn't come, It's you I will not kiss, It caused my heart to ache some. Don't feel pressured, I'm not asking for a commitment, Just always be assured, that for you my feeling will not relent, I know you heart is directed other ways, and my feelings at this point Don't matter. But still, thinking of you I spend my days, and i will continually grow Sadder. <>

MY HERO MY HERO <>

theres a tear in my eye that wont go away, a pain in my heart i hope it will leave someday someone is missing from all of my life i miss him that much it cuts like a knife my hero my hero i need him here hes the only one that can remove this tear <>

MY PAIN <>

Why does everything seeem to go wrong? I try to keep a good face, I do my best to stay strong. It's just so hard when you're constantly feeling like you have to lie. About your life and about the times you cry. I feel like I should hide all my pain and everything I keep buried in my soul. Do you know how exactly this feels? I've never felt something this cold. You might say, "I know exactly how you feel." But you never will, at least not for real. You'll never have the pain I hide deep within me. Not until you look through my eyes and see what they see. My heart just feels so empty and so full of pain, and even sometimes my fear hurts and loneliness builds up and makes the anger towards myself hard to mantain. <>

MIXED EMOTIONS <>

Temptation where you are caught in the middle of desires I think is the hardest part. Not being able to chose is destroying my life and breaking my heart. What's wrong? What's right? What am I feeling? Is it love, is it lust, or is it something I like based only on sight? It's something you'll never know inless you share your thoughts and let what's truely inside of you begin to show. This is something I learned the hard way. I kept my feelings bottled up never saying what i thought I should say. How this hurt me I don't know where to start, but all I can say is that it ripped a huge hole in my heart. I don't want this to happen to you. Life is to short to be wasted and to sweet not to be tasted. The best advice I can give to you while you're feeling mixed emotions is follow your heart it will tell you what to do. <>

DEEP IN MY HEART <>

Deep in my heart, there is a name, A name of a person I'd like to see. We've been apart for quite some time, But he'll always be here with me. He'll always be here with me, Always in my heart. I keep him there because he's special, We are, but we aren't apart. We are but we aren't apart, It's a little hard to decide. I don't want to say he's gone forever, A part of him will always stay inside. I really do miss him, Somewhere deep in my heart. Why did things happen the way they did? I wish we had never separated and drifted apart. <>

FALLING FOR YOU <>

A kiss from your lips, A warm sensuous touch, A display of devotion, I want it so much. When we cuddle, I feel so complete, What glorious fortune it was, For you and me to meet. You are so special, Comparable to few, I think you should know, I think I'm falling for you. All I want is to Steal your heart, And for us to be together, To never be apart. I promise my soul Will always be true, If only you allow Me to love you. <>

GOODBYE <>

tears rolling down my cheek As I say goodbye I see you leave As I start to cry I don't even ask or wonder Because sooner or later I know you'd leave And the skies would darken up My smiles will fade again For my love can only hurt me And my hatred can only scar others But I'll love you near or far When you're here the skies lighten up And my worries gone But now I can only watch you leave As I say goodbye. <>

TRY TO FORGET <>

Try to forget the love that we had, Try to forget all the stuff I miss so bad, Try to forget how you rubbed my face, Try to forget how we went every place. Try to forget how you whispered in my ears, Try to forget how you wipped away my tears. And when our love has long been dead, When we've moved on to the road ahead, And I'm laying wide awake in bed, The memory of us will be in my head <>

DEEP INSIDE <>

Please don't judge me by my face By my friends or what you hear. Please don't laugh at what I wear Or how I look or do my hair. Please look deep inside of me. And although you may not see it I have a lot to hide. Behind my clothes, the secrets lie Behind my smile, I softly cry. Please look deep inside, And maybe you will find The lonely girl that lives in me. Please listen carefully to her She'll show that she is insecure. Please try to be a friend to her And maybe you will see, That if you just look deep enough You'll find the real me. <>

INSIDE OF ME <>

I may seem happy but im not Im frowning on the inside I may seem ugly but im not Im beatuiful on the inside I may seem chearful but im not Im cryin on the inside I may seem lively but im not Im nuthin but dead on the inside! <>

NO SUNSHINE <>

I run so fast, I run so far, I run just to get away. I try so hard just to hide, I feel this day after day. Get away from the dark, Now there is no sunshine. Ever since you tore my heart, There has been no sunshine. Everyone thinks I'm okay, They think I glow so bright. But never will they ever know, There is no sunshine, there is no light. I never thought it'd be so dark, Lonely, rejected, depressed, and empty. You took the sunshine with you And now darkness? I have plenty <>

ACID TEARS <>

I cry, acid tears They burn my cheaks The emotion runs so deep Straight from my heart ~ But you ignored me and my tears You never wanted to even care for me You dispise my very creation And hate my whole being ~ You could never stand me And all the oppertunies I had So you have to fake to me Just to make me seem bad ~ I cut myself to try and find a release From always trying to find away to please you But everything I ever do Always seems to anger you ~ But now as my life falls apart around me And I call out, plea for help I turn and see you watching me where I fell But then you disapear You have left me. <>

WHERE ARE YOU? <>

i need you more than i have ever needed you before it seems like an eternity since i last saw you it feels like years have past since we last talked i sit and stare at your pictures wanting you to tell me you love me and that you care i want you to reach out and hold me what i would give to just feel your arms around me i try so hard to think of all the good times we've had everything that made us laugh and smile but that night it keeps playing over and over in my head i try to change it but i know it's only wishful thinking i want you here with me loving me, holding me i love you with all my heart and soul <>

IVE BEEN HERE BEFORE <>

i'm falling again into that familiar darkness i've seen this place before felt it's freezing emptiness lived in it's black nothingness and i pray for the strenth to pull through to survive to make it out once again but i'm screaming as i fall because what if this time i don't esape? <>

DAVID <>

Dave said "things could get better" Dave said don't worry about it" dave said alot of things Including "I love you but don't shout it." Dave had his mind made up From the moment of the start He decided he was too good for me In the bottom of his heart But he lied to himself and I And convinced us both untrue When I realized dave knew he was too good I didn't know what to do I thought maybe he wouldn't notice I cried out in need of help But Dave heard and never came Only caring about himself Dave said that it was over Then he told me a million more lies And then dave walked away from me And didn't even bother to cry. <>

WHAT YOU CANT SEE KILLS ME <>

Watching a child, watching the fights, Crying my sleep during the screams of the night . Nestled in pillows overtaken by tears, She'd never realize this would effect her over the years. So afraid of this monster, one that I hate, It comes from the anger so the pain it makes. If only a mirror could save it to see, This child is hurting, This child is me. So scared to fall in love, but tired of being alone , I remember all those tears, And the pain they have shone. Now no longer with youth, But old enough to say, I can't ignore these memories I live with, I live with then everyday <>

CHILD ABUSE <>

Pitied man. I held you once In such a high regard And waited on a fathers pride, A single guiding word. But drunken fits And angry shouts Filled places meant for warmth , Slowly killing all respect And turning love to loathe. A child cannot understand The power of the brew, The undeserved striking hand, The emptiness in you. Passing time dulls the ache And clears the eye to see. The problems that you had back then Belonged to you Not me. <>

RAPE <>

A joke a game a score for him turned my life changing me forever. maybe I wouldn't have stayed pure but his deceit was a dose of the devil that spread through me and not easily cured. His hot sweaty body muscular and heavy weighed mine down and blurred my already drunk vision. Telling me "hold tight" taming my whimpers and squirms, I closed my eyes in pain. He took my innocence away and who's to say he regrets this day. He was rewarded congratulated for a piece of my life. I may be bruised inside, but growing strong angels life me above his poverty in spirit. Alone I now find a jewel so clear inside that never really was taken. <>

CONFESSION OF A CUTTER <>

Silence Only tears As I press the blade Against my pale skin Red The blood flows From the wounds Echoing my inner pain Satisfaction As I feel the knife Slicing into me I only deserve pain Anguish As I realize what I've done I feel accomplishment As I gaze at the marks upon my skin Stares People are horrified Don't understand why Neither do I <>

SAD NIGHT <>

It was a sad and quiet night, with words as my shade, I wrote this poem to you, hoping that the pain would fade. Hoping that the pain would fade, the pain I feel in me, as each day passes by, the time might set me free. It was a sad and quiet night, when I faced the hardest part, cause I was all by myself, with a broken heart. It was a sad and quiet night, with my head in hand, when I learned to accept, and how to understand. Now I do understand, that reality is pain, which brought me tears, and left me in the rain. It was a sad and quiet night, as my dreams went through, I realize my mistake, it was wrong to love you <>

IM TO BIG TO CRY <>

I never stopped to realize How lonely I would be I never thought the day would come When you'd grow tired of me Your voice was never sweeter Than the day you said goodbye You'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry If I knew then what I know now You'd still be kissing me Instead there's someone else's lips Where mine used to be I say hello and wish you well Each time I pass you by But you'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry You never looked so wonderful As the day you walked away I used to say, "I love you" But that I could not say I can't forget you darlin' No matter how much I try You'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry <>

MISSING YOU <>

My love for you is so strong. My nights are long Since you have been gone. I miss our love we use to share. My heart's not the same since you have gone. I lay awake at night thinking of all the love we shared. I miss you oh so very much. I pray that you will come back I miss you. as the days go by Without you here I realize Just what you mean to me And how much I love you. You are my life, my world, my everything. I miss you <>

DREAMS SHATTERED <>

The glass shatters My dreams break Nothing else matters I don't want to wake You cut me with the glass You hurt me once more Will this hurt ever pass? What's this life for? All that I achieved Has been swept away Everything I believed Is not here today. <>

ESCAPE HIS LOVE <>

Her head hung low, her heart beat fast. But when he walked out of the room, She raised her head high. Maybe she'll get over him, Maybe she wont cry . It's been a long time now , People say she should move on, But she just can't get over him. They talk about the time, When they shared all that love, But nobody understands, Why she's still in love. She falls to the ground, And try's to get back up, But the fear keeps pushing her down. Will she ever escape the memory of his love? <>

DO YOU EVEN CARE? <>

I just don't know how to feel, If I should just give up, Store away all emotion And chalk it up as never meant to be. I put away what I feel And try to forget you. But then you smile at me, Or brush against me, And I fall in love all over again. Then you'll forget me For awhile , pretend I'm not there. I cry and wonder, Do you even care at all? <>

CRUSHED <>

You tore my heart into two, My hopes, wilted and shattered, You said I just won't do, To you, that's all that mattered. Didn't you give me a chance, To prove we're made for each other, Let me show it you just once, But in my heart, I know you'll never... Maybe I've started writing poems too late, ' Cause my heart's all blistered, And so full of hate. <>

WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY? <>

I said I loved you, Darling, And gave you all my heart. Yet you chose to leave our love behind, You chose for us to part. What else can I say, My Love? I know this language well. Was it the words of love I spoke? Or was it the words I didn't tell? For if that's the way I failed, And you chose to leave that day -- I'm sorry, My Love . . . What else can I say? <>

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