STAY STRONGIt`s over with my "boyfriend". We decided to break contact. It was his idea and now he says, he`d like it better how it used to be. And that was exactly what I was waiting to hear, at least I thought. But when I heard it, that`s when I came to my senses that things just really couldn`t be, not like that. I want either a steady relationship or friendship, but that whole in between stuff was killing me. It`s a tough job and I will always doubt my answer, but for our own good, it is really better this way. Who knows what will happen in the future, but I don`t want to think about that nor wait for it. It`ll come when it comes and then I`ll see what will happen. When I decided to really let him go and really break the contact, I felt my heart aching and the burning tears rolling down my cheeks and it hurt me a lot, but I got to stay strong. If there`s one thing I`ve learned after heartbreaks is that every heartbreak makes me stronger. And the harder the heartbreak the stronger I will get when I`m finished recovering. I always believe, after rain comes sunshine and when you walk in the dark woods, even if you`re lost or just walking through quickly, you will always find the sun again at the end, a clear sky.
End 2001
