RELEASING ANGERThere was a time, not so long ago, where I decided that hate, holding grudges and anger wouldn’t help me. It wouldn’t get me further in life, wouldn’t make me happier.
I decided that I had to live a peaceful life. People are people; they do what they do because they are just human. No matter what kind of arguments I would get myself in to, I always tried to not make it personal.
Because of this peace I also decided to fix my past problems. I am friends again with somebody I dumped as a friend. I was lucky that he forgave me. I just wanted to be in peace with the people around me, I didn’t like fights and useless arguments. I was in peace with everyone, everyone in my life. I just didn’t want to feel hate and anger anymore.
Yet, here I am, angry with someone, furious, disgusted, full of grudge. There is so much rage in me regarding that particular person. Up until now I left the feeling for what it was, but that didn’t make things better. I wanted revenge, but that wouldn’t help.
I realize that I just simply have to release my anger. I don’t have to do that by doing something physical. I can use the power of the mind.
He is only human. He didn’t intend to hurt me, he is just human. He is not like me, he thinks different, he is just human. He didn’t deliberately hurt me, he didn’t know better. After all, he is just human.
Should I hold grudges against someone, because he doesn’t think like me? Because he doesn’t act like I do? Because he is not me? No!
It’s not up to me to judge him, that is up to the Lord. May there be something to judge about him; the Lord will handle it.
I still don’t care about him. I still don’t want to see him or have anything to do with him.
But, there is a difference between being angry with him and just simply not wanting him in my life.
The fact that I don’t want him in my life is just because I don’t need him. It just means that I don’t have to think about him in a bad or in a good way. I just don’t have to think of him at all. I’m just clean from feelings. Not wanting him in my life is just because that is better for me, for him and for the two of us.
Being angry releases negative vibes within me. They wont help me or make me better. They only make me think of him more. Anger releases fluids that will influence me not only in this situation, but it will blur my thoughts for the other things in my life. Anger won’t help me find myself, it won’t help me recover myself.
He is a human being, he has his life. I just don’t want to be in it and don’t want him to be in mine.
I am releasing my anger therefore I am releasing him.
February 26th 2004
