ON MY OWN

This smile I put on my face is nothing but fake
It's to hide my feelings and for my friends' sake
I smile because I'd ruin their day if not
But a smile to hide my tears is not helping me a lot
When i get home I start to burst out and cry
And when someone asks what's wrong I'd lie
I just have a lot of things on my mind and to do
What can I do to help me? I don't have a clue
It feels like my problems are getting heavier by the day
I got to escape all this stuff, I just have to find a way
I wish my friends could help me with this, but they can't
This I have to do alone, with no other extra hand
All these problems are just ruining my whole life
But somehow, on my own, I just have to learn to survive

December 2000