MY INNER PEACE

There was time I didn't know what to do
A time I was lost in my inner forest
Drowning in misery, thinking I was going good
Living by the illusions, I was doing right to forget
Hardly did I know how I was harming myself
Nor my body, my mind and my heart were clear
Wasted, polluted, everything name it
Pondering day and night what path I was following
Knowing it wasn't the right one, not able to stop
I couldn't turn my back, couldn't make that 180
As days flew by, losing my head more and more
What was I getting myself in to, deeper and deeper I went
Not knowing what I was actually swallowing in my heart
Denigrating, humiliating, shameless, all that I was
Couldn't undertsand what I felt, what I've done
Didn't know how to stop, open my eyes
Until one day I tripped, fell on my knees
There I was with my head in my hands Slowly opening my eyes, I started to see
This was not the path I wanted to walk
This was not the way I wanted to go
I raised myself form the ground, standing strong
I held my head up high and I turned
I walked the other way, finding my way out
I saw the end of this depressing forest
And I walked and I walked until I saw this thing
A stream; clear water running through it
Smiling I walked in, cleansed myself from all those things
I swam and I washed and followed that stream
So that one day I would end up here, on this side
I found it, through the hurt and the pain
Through the laughter and the shame, I found it
This path that I wanted to follow, leading me to this place
The place where I have discovered...my inner peace

Auguts 26th 2003