MY AWFUL LIFEI'm young and therefore you may think I haven't been through bad
While the truth is that hte last three years were the worst I ever had
At this young age I've been through a whole lot
Sometimes I feel it doesn't help, u know, praying to God
In the last three years, I've shed a lot of tears and experienced lot of pain
They say everything has a reason and everything's lesson, but what did I gain
I've had this much experience, I've larned a lot of lessons and look at me now
I'm still the same as years ago, nothing gained, only lost and I wonder how
How could all that happen, I feel like there's no reason, my life didn't become any better
Is it better to ur closes family there and the only way to update them is through a letter?
Is this the reason why it happened, for us being far from our family and far from happiness?
Did all those things, those awful things happen just so that we can live in this mess?
On the other hand, I'm young and I will wait and see if I will live like this the rest of my life
It may seem sad, but if I can't stand I'm going to stad myself with a knife
August 2000
