LETTER READSunday, i decided to read BB my letter instead of sending. I couldn't handle waiting, I was going insane. As I already expected, nothing came out of it except a big discussion about meeting up. Some painful things were, but what can I do about that. The truth is the truth.
I did actually feel better after verything.
I was thinking about another thing though. I've been thinking about breaking contact. It only has its up sides. When I speak to him, every time I speak to him, I only feel sad no matter how fun the conversations are. So with breaking contact I don't have to feel sad all the time. I cna get over him better and I can give him some space.
You don't know what you're missing until it's gone. I miss BB, because I realized he's gone. I don't leave him alone, he never gets the chance to miss me, even if he wanted to.
BB told me that he loves GK a lot and I was talking anout that with a classmate. She has a new boyfriend almost as short as BB has a girlfriend. She told me that her boyfriend told her that he cares about her so much that it
looks like he loves her. That's the same with BB I think. Amd also the same with me. I miss BB so much that it looks like I love him damn much, while I just simply love him. I hope he calls tonight like he told me so that I can just get it all over with. I don't know how and if I can do it. I still love him a lot though, still in love...
November 21st 2002
