IT WAS NOT TIME YETWhy does this happen? Just when I got my life straightened, these feelings come. What feelings? My feelings for that special someone, BB. The point of the matter is that I never got over him a full hundred percent, I just ignored it. I tmade me stronger, but it was bound to go to the surface again. And it has.
The things is, when we broke up it wasn't time yet. Never before and in our relationship we had to go through trouble for our relationship, each other and our love. We never really had to prove something to each other. And when the time came we had to do trouble and prove something, we gave up. And that's what bothering me so much.
I have to admit, I miss him, both his friendship and love.
I'm confused right now, I don't know if i miss our memories, our relaitonship or him as my boyfriend. I have to think a lot of things through. I want to tell what's on my mind, in my heart. But I'm afraid, afraid that I'm going to break the friendship we're trying to built up. I guess I have a whole lot of thinking to do.
I'm in chaos again. Everything inside of me is running around iwldely not knowing what to do, where to go. One word to describe now: Chaos...
February 25th 2003
