ILLUSIONS CALLED PERFECTIONSometimes a person needs a “mental breakdown” once in a while to be snapped back into reality again and to gain more strength. I’m having that right now. It’s not really a mental breakdown, it’s more a little chaos.
Life was going too good for me the couple of months, I had really nothing to complain. So now I got a little bit of chaos in my life. It tells me that perfect doesn’t exist. I already knew that, but sometimes it has to be told to me again so that I won’t be dragged down by the illusion called perfection. It’s just an illusion, something made up by people so that they can escape reality. Because reality consist of clouds, even litte ones in the sky. Perfection is blinding you from it. Reality is seeing it and coping with it. Of course we have days where everything goes very good, but it’s not perfect. It’s just having fun with the sun and ignoring the clouds. And there is a difference between blinding yourself from something and ignoring it for a while. The ignoring can grow to blinding if it takes too long and those are the moments where we’ve got to be snapped back to reality. Just like I’m having right now. I ignored my clouds, my feelings for too long that I started to blind myself from it. And now I’m being snapped back into reality . That ignoring made me stronger, but blinding almost made me weak again. Reality strengthens you, perfection weakens you. Perfection makes you think there’s nothing bad, so when something bad does happen, you’ll be shocked too much, don’t know what to do, have a breakdown because you were not prepared. Reality means accepting that everything is not only good and coping with it. When one of the bad things come to the surface, you’ll know what to do, because you were fully aware of the fact that bad things exist. Everywhere, everything, every place in life they exist. And learning how to cope with it makes you stronger than blinding yourself from it.
I know, I’ve been there and I learned. From the illusion, I learned. From reality I strengthened. Perfection was nice when I wanted to escape, reality was good when I wanted to grow, learn and be strong.
February 24th 2003
