HAPPINESS OR NOT?I'm wondering if i'm really happy or not, if my smile is true or if it's just another mask, like it always is/was.
After a hard period, it's always tough to know if you're happy or not, it's also tough to see if your tears are true or not, if you just want to hurt yourself.
Somehow, my life seems to be going good. i really actually don't have anything to complain about. But still, I'm afraid that I wil just hurt myself more, because this smile on my face and this "happiness" is just a masquerade.
But on the other side, I do know one thing. We shouldn't worry if we're happy or not, because what really matters is that it seems like you're happy. We just got ot enjoy it, even if it appears at the end that he happiness wasn't true, we still enjoyed and thet's the point. Like I always sa˙,"It's not about how long you're in the light, but what you do when it's light." Or something like that.
So, if you're doubting if you're really happy or not, forget it, just be happy!
December 14th 2002
