CONTACT BROKENSo breaking contact worked, he didn't object. But it felt as if we broke up for the second time, for me.
I think I'm starting to hurt, starting to miss him. I will have heavvy cry and depress days, but that's just something I have to pull myself over. Afterwards I will feel better, at least I hope.
MC stayed here yesterday, we had good talks. I'm happy he's in my life again.
I miss BB so much that I often fantasize of him surprising me to get me back. And then, I think about him holding GK. No matter how often I tell people and people tell me that their relationship won't last long, the idea of them being together at the moment still hurts.
I'm not over it yet, not over him and I don't know how long it will take, I hope soon.
November 24th 2002
