CLOSURE TIME

That's it, I've worked out everything that was bothering me and I'm on my path again.
I've realised that meeting up with BB to talk things out wouldn't help, because we would do it because we're forced and that won't turn out right. So I told him that and right now we're just trying to be friends and make it fun. If or when we wfeel like talking about something, we can do that. There are still a lot of questions running through my mind, but right now my priority is to live life, just simply live. Like TD said to me yesterday:"The time of worrying about my problems is over, now it's just time ot have fun." He's totally right. i've had my share of problems. Instead of wasting time and trouble on the bad things I just have to have fun. Enjoy the good things, looking at the sun and the clear, blue sky and ignoring the tiny clouds.
Another thing I worked out is about RA, the boy I like. I decided to jump into the hole and see where I land. I told him I liked him. It didn't work out the way I hoped it would, but at least I know. I don't have to wonder every day and doubt about what ot do. The hole didn't take me where I actually wanted, but it took me somewhere and it didn't let me fall endlessly.
And the last things is TD. We talked again yesterday and it went normal, so everything wnet OK and we're friends again.
I've taken care of the past and closure section and now it's time for fun, time for myself and with the people around me.
I'm ready again, ready to live, ready to enjoy, ready to have fun, ready to be me...

February 3rd 2003