A SECRETI wish I could let you know how I feel. I wish I could tell you what’s inside of me. The words in my heart are so very clear, ready to share yet full of fear. Those pictures in my mind, they tell me so much, yet nothing I can tell you, nothing I could help you find.
I wish you knew how I really feel, because it’s hurting deep inside. I know what you feel, I know it’s not me. The thought of you lightens up my face, something inside of me divine and true. There’s a rainbow in my life, I know it’s you.
I have so many feelings in my heart to give, to prove. Yes, that person is you, impossible but true.
I wish I could give you a moment to look inside my heart. So you could see what I can give to you.
I wish I could hold your hand, so you can feel the love that I can show.
I wish I could touch your heart so you would feel what I feel. A desire that longs for something beyond the here and now. A tingle from me to you, from you to me, in you and me.
My heart is reaching for you, asking for your touch, yet, it knows your heart reaches the other side.
There’s a deep hidden love, hidden deep inside. A love once scared for the touch of a love not expected. A love now ready to go, where it was afraid to go. A love willing to go beyond all boundaries, willing to meet yours.
How I wish I could just let you know how something impossible but true could happen to me for you.
It’s hard to know you’re willing to give your love to someone, knowing he’s not feeling that love for you.
It’s hard trying to reach for someone unreachable.
It’s hard thinking about him all day knowing he’s not thinking about you.
It’s hard looking around every corner to find him knowing he’s looking around other corners trying to find her.
But the hardest things is knowing you can’t let him know, because you know you will get hurt. But still, being able to let him know, because you know that what you thought you knew could be something beyond your knowledge.
I wish I knew what to do, but I’m not ready to know, it’s not my time. Maybe sometime, maybe when I’ll know, maybe that day, I’ll be able to call you mine.
May 25th 2003
