No more tears
ambient flourescence
hallway demeanor of languid
hallucionation
give me an explanation of your design
your form and firm meaning
who are you to demand
to imprison my mind and ask the life of this man
i've wounded your hold, sliced the flesh from you hand
till i stand alone in my blood soaked dreams
and it seems i cant let go of my own goals
with you that means i cant become my own

puberty is a time of jealousy
and i demand you acceptance of me
with a rapier wit piercing you spirit
and pinning you to the drowning
an atrophy of my heart, bc i cant feel you
spiral into my eyes, to feel my lies
my surface crimes that have a basis in my
alone times
i cant feel you
or my own
i am alone again

...ness
with a sip
i recline into my position
your legs framing
my baby face linguistics
tongue dancing
let me explain my parting of your lips
mmmmm
your legs are cobbled to
the door i want to knock at
with tongue lashings to taste
to wet, to make
love
sliding into my position
your legs framing my eye contact
as breath entices
shhhhh
warm, moist life on you thigh
inching forward, reflecting your sigh
in physical form of fascinating
ecstasy
i close in on a depression that invites me
and i kiss ever so gently, declining the
invitation just yet
suction felt full form on your leg
while your beauty tickles me cheek
i smell you
i taste your excitement
your delicious, delectable shiver
i slip my tongue across your moist...
ness
slippery requests
slide
into place and i bite into my goddess
i can barely breath in your presence
and i flick my tongue out to
worship
to
please
locked in place by your knees and your hands
i quicken my pace
answer your demands
with a kiss and a flick and a bite to subside
your shaking thighs
tasting you from the inside
and my pace quickens a bit more
as you lift from the floor
and i french kiss the only things you hide
from me
and call you to me for all eternity in this instant
until you scream and lose me in your own ride
and i savor you, your aroma, your taste
the aftermath of ecstasy covers me in a sweet sweat and
nectar and ambrosia, an explosion of ego, a fantasy supernova that i reflect in.

swim in my mind tonight, my love, and delight in your own

I am Alone
i am alone. your brilliance blinds me into a daze while my days slip away blinding me into brilliant deductions. or hazy
dreams. whichever way the wheel turns, im falling off, and falling up into the ever awaiting arms of self pity. dust off and re-ride to reach that 8 seconds, but she can be very slippery underfoot when you dont look. she being life of course, when your stomach turns and divorce is inevitable and you become an auto-cannibal bc the only thing to feed on is your bleeding heart, punctured in hollow point, hallowed point truth. torpor of the soul, lashed to a piece of searing sympathy and pity by a golden ring that you thought would only fit your finger. even after the smell of burnt dreams departs, the scars linger on your heart, to remind you of the part you played in the play you want to part from. ignore me again, my friend, and live your life humdrum. crawl and walk and run, just fall and suicide is fun, a daily thrill, to kill. but murder is only relevent when shallow, for deeper meanings lead to healings lead to billing, lead to fourpence and a shilling to cover your eyes when you die of lies and day dreams believed. that is life. dementia is accepting it. embrace it and live and let live. die and let live. i am alone. i was born alone. and i die alone.

Begging
would u miss me if i never existed
would u feel empty and wish for me
could u realize we're not together
and beg the gods to help you weather
the missing piece that i feel in my soul
the missing piece that i cant let go
i pray to never forget
to not just remember, but everyday to relive it
not just see it, but feel your form again
when im dreaming or awake, i beg that
its not the end, for love's sake.

Anticipation
anticipation
of your voice trembling
a martyred sensation sending me
into an oblivious state of bliss
anticipation
of your lips tasting divinity
and sharing the flavoring with me
dancing into a seething blend of
innosence and sin in but a kiss
anticipation
of your form, fleeting beneath my fingertips
lithe and manageable only in sips
intoxicating under your pressure, your breath
anticipation
of your sensation, the extrapolation
of your sighs into reflections in my eyes
of my own cries of ecstacy, thousandfold death
anticipation
and fulfillment, found only in sharing my
last
solitary
soulful
breath.

You
cold
in the darkness you create
do not be afraid
i am the sunrise

Saved it
champagne sexuality
what a calamity to deny
your hospitality.
im sitting in a dreamstate, beside
aphrodite's namesake, settling
for halfbaked attempts at asking
your name.

cool it.

to explode in personal definition,
a supernova exquisite, an
exhibition of private dreams
revisited. a boredom package
delivered in a pocket protector

cool it.

deliverance from my own ineptitude,
by design is an architectual wonder
in todays environment, scaffolding
of tempered but tarnished hopes
and ego cannot support the weight
of self imprisoned hatred, and when
you begin to fall, all you can do is
let go, and think about the best,
knowing you saved it,

for last.

Permission?
the end of the world as we know it, and i feel fine

i've been thinking about u, and realize i cant live without you

without u, i collapse and wonder perhaps, maybe a relapse into my memory

will save me from me.

dreaming
tormenting
believing in fairy tale endings

decisions made reflect my mind like bitter lemonade salted when i cry into the glass

thinking about the past

reform my world with your whimsical lore, and hold your form nevermore.

can i cry now?

Relationships
feel my pain
these are the things that encourage my insane-ity
who r u 2 no my gratuity and my profanity
your life leads u differently
missing me? no
without me? yes
yes is the word i sought on the best of days
but no is the word i fought with anyway
how can i survive with clay wrappings under your fingers
wrap around my heart to a brick wall, while your scent lingers to
remind me of
all the pain i went through,
encased and reflected over in you, in you eyes seeking mine and my
only release is
on electric rhymes
i've tried to climb the highest peaks and found phobia leaks through
demeanor
weather stripping as the storm grows sipping upon fruitjuice gone bad
and i dream of you and yours and what pain do i recieve?
yours, your dreams and unseen emptiness

bless me with your scourge and switch me into obedience
like it or not im yours
deal with me or kill me
what is your wish my dear
do u fear my imposter actions
with traction lost bc of the lack of satisfaction in your blessed
chlorine cleansings.

An Empty Circle of Love
an empty circle of love
reflected in a pool of ever aching tears
these are my dreams
these are my fears
searing visions of your emotion
lost from my touch
exploring closure is just to much
hold me in my depths
in my despair
in my depression
where i dont care
blossom within my carnations of inhalation
bleed from within my mind, my temptation
caress my heart within my salvation
my death
to much holds my heart under glass
to much from the past
explode my prison
and ribbon my existence within
silly definition of compromise in our
blessed hour of inhibition
see my eyes and the tears
an empty circle of love i fear
is my destiny, with a silent fog of me