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Welcome to a
Kinder, Gentler Hell
*For all questions, comments or concerns,
feel free to e-mail me at either
PistolPez0516@yahoo.com or
VoidOfEmotions@aol.com*
-*-Anger-*-
-*-Obscurity-*-

Some are blessed with confidence
Some are blessed with looks
But some maintain
That sad refrain
And live their lives in books

Devoid of good intentions
And without an ounce of class
The weak are overpowering
The strong are left cowering
For fear that of our days of obscurity, today will be our last

Blessed by God to better the people
Blessed by God to save His lost
They forget their humble, human beginnings
And only focus only on their winnings
No matter what the cost

We menially do our duties
We subservantly live our lives
But it's those abrasive persons
By whom our condition worsens
Until our lucky break arrives

I cannot feel remorse for these people
They have never felt sorry for me
But I rest easy knowing
Down which pathes they'll all be going
As I drift off into obscurity

A fire burns in my being
Hardship and pain are all I am seeing
Love is love
But among confusion
Light from above
Causes life's great illusion

I blame myself for all my hate
But it's not my fault you infuriate
I crouch in the shadows
As you sit at the top
As wild as the wind blows
I watch myself drop

Your untouched hair, you sparkling smile
Would cause you no grief, should you stay for a while
You walked over me
On your way to the summit
And to put it nicely
I hope like hell that you plummet

I stand before you naked
And I've also been awakened
I see through your resistence
To your hollow, echoing soul
And to how you longed for an existence
That took you out of your hole

All it took was a touch
To supply you with a crutch
As you hobbled through this world
In an emotionless haze,
You almost seemed nocturnal
Never seeing the brighter days


Only now have you changed your tone
Found a reason to use the phone
But to leave your postition
Of stability and ease
Deserves an inquizition
To find if it's all a tease


If you must, you may go
But one day soon, I know,
You will see the light of day
And those whom you have squandered
Will bring you back to stay
To make you wish you hadn't wandered
-*-Repose of the Soul-*-

Tired.  I'm tired
Tired of living this tedious lie
You are all too blind to see
That when I ask "why"
You answer "why me"

Weary.  I'm weary
Weary from living within my means so long
Weary from chasing my dreams
Do you want to join me and come along
As I fall apart at the seams

Broken.  I'm broken
A broken heart and a broken mind make their case
And when I'm standing there
Opening my soul and gazing into space
I find my burdens too weighty to bare

Weak.  I'm weak
Weakened by madness
Blowing in the breeze
Devoid of the gladness
That a happy person sees
-*-Get to Know Your Nightmares-*-

I bow at the feet of disaster
But I get nothing out of bowing my head
And I haven't made a pact
With my taskmaster
Nothing heard nor said

Dysfunction excuses hate in the short term
Over the years, hate envelopes all sight
Think of all you'll derive
From the early worm
Around the death of night

Conviction seems to stall on the train tracks
Sensing defeat, it gives in
When the heart of it all
Knows what it lacks
Recovery begins

Gleaning light from out of the blackness
Soon becomes your only cause
Once you think you are
Off of the black list
They change the laws

Corrupted by your faith in a stranger
You carelessly throw down the gloves
Then you glide away
Towards more danger
On the wings of doves

-*-Stillness-*-

She is the light at the end of my suffering
But dark as the night are her eyes
And it comes as no surprise
That for all her empty confidence
I find myself laboring
Over the unpresentable evidence
But she keeps me still

I see her as my future
She sees me as the past
But in the shadows she may cast
I feel my heart strain
For if you only knew her
You'd share my pain
I stand here still

The tranquility of together
Is broken by the truth
That the happiness of my youth
Has gone by the wayside
And I don't know whether
We're both on the same side
I'm magically still

I know how it feels to be lonely
I know how I feel when she's near
But lonely is lonely
She's my one and only
And I'll still be lonely here
-*-Her Voice-*-

I'm usually quite restrained
Although emotionally dead, I'm cool
But this feeling cannot be explained
I'm typically no one's tool
Although my soul is black, I
Am always called back by
Her voice

I know so many more
But they never make me feel
Like I never lived before
My heart was hers to steal
Of all the sounds to hear tonight, I
Find myself brought into sight by
Her voice

A beautiful, moving melody
Comes from her sweet mouth
It seems that she is inviting me
Without it actually coming out
Her eyes dance and tease me right
But nothing gets me nearly like
Her voice

I long to accept her unspoken invitation
But the words are never right
My heart would finally feel the unending elation
Of having her near to me tonight
My words may be indecisive and frail
But there is one thing I will never silence with a vail
Her voice
-*-The Depths-*-

I won't accept the truth that
This reality is real
It's funny, but I can't laugh at
How anyone truly feels
When that dark, forbidden fullness
Comes to stand them on their heels

Who am I to weigh
What is right and what is wrong
I am but one of many
I have not been here long
Nor have I any convictions
Be they weak or be they strong

Driven by a passion
Which I cannot explain,
I easily lose my traction
As I walk through the rain
These memories still haunt me
They bring about such pain

My anxieties overcome me
As I draw closer to your home
And the lamp light from above me
Reflects off the stones
That lie in the window through which I stare
At their bright, sparkling tones




Enveloped by envy
Of what you have that I don't
The deep, fulfilling stability
Everyone should have, but I won't
If all the world is kindness,
Why hasn't anyone shown it

All I want is the piece of mind
That there isn't any doubt
That I will one day come to find
What being known, being held is all about
A feeling of completeness
That doesn't run out

To fall back on company
When life knocks you down
Is the greatest sounding symphony
That man has ever found
If ever there was a better time
Please don't turn that music down

Whoever dealt my cards
In the poker game of life
Forgot to deal me my queen of hearts
My rightful reward for years of strife
And in the end,
It all seems almost right

 

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