Cloud 9

♥*WHAT's THE HAP ??*♥

Well, I've decided to do a bit of current events on my webpage. I don't really know what I am going to say....i hope it's pg-13!!!

I'm going to the hame yay! but Jeremy was supposed to be here 43 minutes ago...that really sucks balls...His mom made him get his hair cut... I think it' kinda gay thaqt she had to have her way and make him late. I don't care if he's late to get me...but jeremy said he was meeting other people at 11, so he's WAY late for them b/c of his stubborn ass mom. Why couldn't she have gotten his hari cut tomorrow...it'll still be there tomorrow, so will the hair cuttery...1 day isn't gonna kill her or jeremy. DAmn....grr that's just really irritating that she had to do that. Damn. Anyways i don't care doesn't affect me...but seriously..I hate being late...like when people are expecting me to be somewhere...luckily no one care about me...and if im there...yay...so i get off scott free this time

I haven't updated this page in a while. Once again I am using this and an alternative to xanga. why you ask!? b/c xanga isn't an online journal is gossip central. So whatever i don't care. I think that i'd much rather set my feeling free on a place where no one reads them. No one is gonna remember this page so it's gravey. hahaha. So many things have gone on recently...too many things to count. But they all lead up to me being a complete and utter looser. The only person I have in the world is my jeremy. Dana coudln't careless about me if other people are around. Anytime krista or kenny are around buh byes Anna. and like when I talk to her..if someone else is there she goes off talkign to them....so fuck it. I don't matter. I love jeremy so much and I don't know what i'd do without him. He;s the only person who's truly there for me. Im tired of false smiles and artificial converstation...give me a friendship that is real. Someone who calls me on the weekends to say b./c they care...not someone who calls only when their boyfriends break up with them...or people who say they care....but it's only when they see someone is going through something difficult. They don't want ot get involved and get their hands dirty..they just want to give the impression they are doing the right thing...truth is NO ONE CARE ABOUT ME!

picture this: Nothingness. Complete dark....a huge universe with nothing in it. No light, no internet, no stupid or smart people...no spirits atoms, no energy of sort. complete and total nothingness. That's where we are all headed one day. We will be nothing. That's all good right, for sum far off and distant future. Death and non existance is fine as long as it's far away off in sum distant land. What if it's today or tomorrow, maybe even an exact date.

I haven't talked to Sam or Evan much recently...hmm I hope things are going well for them...they are so cute together. They are kinda irritating tho, cuz like they both have jobs...I WANT A JOB!! anyone know of any place that would be willing to hire a retard like me :-P? hehe Oh wells. I can't even look yet, so that's pissing me off. I finally semi-know where im going to be living for and indefinite amount of time. That helps ::shrugs:: i guess.
Jeremy's at sum sort of soccery type thing..i forget exactly. Hopefully I'll get to talk to him tonight hehe he's just so wonderful...very sexy too.. hehe ANyways! I was hoping to be able to

WEll today was awesome. I got to see jeremy which is always awesome. and well...He's just soooooo hot..hehe I love him so much. He makes me feel so much better then anyone else ever could or ever will. I LOVE YOU JEREMY!!

People make mistakes. We're human it's our nature. No one hits the bulls eye everytime ('cept Robin hood), and just becuase they miss once, doens't mean that they can't work hard to get better. In other situations make a mistakes could be the worst thing u've done, and could hurt someone around you....someone who means alot to you. You can't take back what you did, but u can assure them that you would never hurt them again. The only key to making mistakes...is to learn from them...don't completely ignore them.
Anna <3 Jeremy

Otakon is this weekend, im trying to get sum money together to go. I've wanted to go so bad since last year, but it's $50, for all 3 days. Hmmm...Maybe my dad could give me sum money, I'd hate to ask. Im just rolling around sum ideas in my head. I'm watching TLC a dating thing. The guy talks like a weirdo..i wanna slap him...he's annoying. hahaha im so mean. ::innocent look:: I wonder what Jeremy is doing...he's always so busy :(....poopers. ummm I haven't got any ideas for this site...anyone else have anythign they think i should put on this..??

Well not really much to say...im watching tom and jerry...playing old maid. Im sooo bad at it! hehe. Umm...I got to chp. 4 in the great Gatsby. I'm hoping to be able to finish it in a few days...do the work...and then get started back on my history work....hehe. I doubt that's what's gonna happen. I got to watch Trigun and Lupin 3rd last night!!! Im not supposed to stay up that late (cuz im living with my grandmother) I'm gonna miss my shows when i live with my non cablified dad.....oh darn. I miss it already...wait..that's becuz it's not on today...oh well....
Anna <3 jeremy

Hey everyone.... been 2 days since my last update....it seems so much longer then that for sum reason. hmmm I wonder why. I'm so far behin don my summer reading....tsk tsk tsk...I know..I should be reading...but it's so boring. Actually I just took a break from all that history and decided to start on the great gatsby...it's purty good. My grandmother rented to movie for me....I like it...kinda tragic tho. Of korse all books we have to read for school are tragic....they are just adding to teen depression. Hmm maybe they are trying to kil us all off. Not a bad idea...but I can think of a better one... We could all die having sex...that would be much mroe fun. hehehe im kidding im kidding. I know sum people that owuld probably still have sex even if it meant death..hahaha. Isn't that weird. Well I advise anyone who is reading the great gatsby to watch the movie. Make it into a sleep over with friends who have the read the book...it's great! hehe on a not so happy note...more a longing abd horribly horny note....I still haven't seen jeremy. Grrr...hehe..so much sxual fustrations...but i think i've gotten used to it..and don't really crave his touch the way i did a month ago. Nonetheless I still want to see him and miss him terribly...and well it just plain sucks. I know my vocabulary isn't very becoming a "poly student." i don't give a fuck i'll talk a dirty mouthed 2 yr old if i want to..hehe. toodles everyone..much love and all that stuff
Anna <3 Jeremy

Well I planned to do something really kool today... that would make me really happy, but it fucked up. Nothing that ever matters works out. FUCK! this sucks...:'( i'll tell you guys about it later im too pissed off to write much, but i figured i might as well let you know im alive