I'm going in a few minutes !!!
Haaaaaaa !!!

Oh I forgot to tell that yesterday I talked to Father Nicolas on phone. It's way reassuring! He said there would be someone to take us at the airport when we will arrive.
We bought the train ticket. I'm waiting for my friend's dad to drive me to the station now. Jeez!
I feel so weird. & you're right if you think that I'm totally making too big a story of this stuff, lmao. So many ppl went there before, & so many will go after us so I should just calm down.
That's pity though that they show the "concorde"'s crash (few years ago) on TV yesterday, lmao

Soooooo, that's a real bye for now, last post before I'm back I guess.
GOOOOOOOD BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYE !!!!!!!!!!

Hours - 5 !!!
Didn't sleep. I hardly slept & hardly could eat for this past week, & now I feel giddy. Not sure that's a good way to start. & I dunno if it's because I'm still sick from the cold I caught during the summer camp or if it's coz of the stress but I really can't eat today. & I swear this time it's not because I'm back into annorexia. :-p I'm so away from the dietary & behavior disorders since the lesson of the RMI & I got enough physical troubles due to this whatever-thing to deal with not to add to it, :-p ha ha ha

Hmm, I'm getting out of the topic. It's somehow good I couldn't sleep cause I remembered I had forgot the sheet to sleep in. The memory came out of the blue at about 2am. So I wrote it down on a paper not to forget. Then at 3am I remembered I had forgotten sommink else, but I was too lazy to get up & write it so I tought when I'll take the sheet I'll remember about the other thing too. Do you think I do remember now? Jeez, that's so upsetting, stupid memory. I know it's not really really important (or rather I hope it's not) but I can't remember what it was. Here is where laziness leads. I remember even it's sommink in my desk... but what the heck is it????
Ack !!! Nvm.

D- 1 hmm not even it's the day !! 1am but I can't sleep!
So, I'm leaving today.
Tomorrow at this exact hour I'll be in the plane since I'll arrive there when it'll be 2am in France, 11pm in Niger, & hmm, I spare you all the time in US, lol
So it's 1am & I'm still up, talking to Questa & Aly, but about to leave soon though cause I don't wanna sleep in the plane.
I'm so stressed but talking with ppl during all the week helped me a lot to be calmer.
Thanky everyone I spoke to during this week!!!
I can't believe I'm leaving, lol, I'm gonna write a journal everyday there, & I'll try to type it when back. & I'm gonna send postcard to everyone, I hope they won't arrive too late. I can't believe I almost forgot to make my dad's enveloppe! Oopsy!:-p
Soooo go to bed now (starts to speak to herself, not good it's really time).
Bye to ya all folks if I don't get time to make one more post tomorrow, I mean later when I get up. :-D

D - 3 !!!!! Ahhhhh !!!!
I can't believe it! I'm sooo worried and stressed lately while I think I'm gonna go real soon!
Fortunately, I have good friends to talk to and they keep my mind busy, so that I don't worry. Moreover, they are all so supportive and it's so comforting.
To add to this happy side, my mother doesn't seem to want to argue before I go so far, so it's really really great!!! :-D

Now, for the bad points, we still are not sure we will see a priest before to go (shame on us!) to prepare the camp with the young of there.
We have no news from Father Nicolas, who is the one who should receive us, since quite a long time.

& now a list. I liked lists very much, lol, I started tons of lists, never ended them, lmao, for all sort of things. Right now, one about things for Africa :

*NOT FORGET to start to take the pills against leucemia on Sunday !!! Must start them one day before to go, & keep on one month after being back.

*NOT FORGET to get rid of all jewels before to go.

*Call the priest tomorrow.

*Call Father Nicolas to tell him we arrive at 11pm (local time) on monday.

*Take chewing gum for the plane for the ears & eventually to fix a wing of the plane if it breaks.

*Think about giving my password to access to my "will" (erm lol, mainly message, lmao) to someone else since the one who had them is coming with me & might die too. :-p

*Practise the stuff to get poison out with the mouth

*Stopping being so cynical coz it's freaking me out finally

*Stopping this list before it gets too long and boring so that I'll be able to read it again tomorrow.

*Thinks a lot during the night to remember all the things which should be on this list and are not coz I forgot them.

*Eventually, try to sleep this night for a change.

Yay !!!
Well, in the end we didn't get the last thing for the money so we will have to pay. Shit, but hopefully, I got money from the summer camp so it's ok.
But I'm still saying Yay !! coz I received few minutes ago a letter, with all the last papers in it.
The letter of introduction, the international visa, the numbers to call in case of probs (crosses fingers to have not to use them) & some other stuff.
Now, I'm so excited but stressed. I'm still sick & I'm just getting some energy back from the exhausting summer camp. I miss the kids. Moraly I'm not down, I just got the blues. lol
I can't believe it. I'm gonna take the plane for the first time. I'm gonna leave this continent. I'm gonna meet the nicest ppl ever.
Oh, yes, coz I forgot to tell, but everyone who's been to Africa tells that ppl there are so nice despite the poverty. They are way nicer than in rich countries where ppl are cold & don't tell hello to anyone.
I hope this trip will be helpful to some ppl, I really wish I could help a bit.
& meanwhile I hope to help myself not to become the typicstupid egoist westerner!

Last post maybe?
I'm not done with the site, 2 pages left to make, damn! Plus I wanted to add another one called "Expectation"
I hope, hope, hope the puter will be fixed during the time I get back from the summer camp & before to go to Africa so that I'll have time to finish everything. I really wanna translated to program of the "spiritual" camp in the religious page, & I wanna make this expectation page to compare then when I'll be back.
Everyone keeps telling that I won't be the same when I'll be back, cause in here, we are so used to our little western lives, complaining about the slightest little thing going wrong. When there, it's the real misety & it's a shock.
I hope to become a bit wiser & not so whining when I'll be back, & understand the real aspect of things. I just hope I won't be too bad with ppl around, coz I know I already am bad when I come back from a simple camp around so... we will see.
I think I start becoming a bit scared now, with all of this coming closer & closer.

Expectation...

I've been explained a bit more about this money stuff... that's so great! We actually got the grant we had asked for, & another one we didn't expected coz it's Jere's dad who asked for it without even telling us... but nm coz we got a $500 grant thanks to him.

Then... we are still waiting for a $750 grant & if we have this one, we won't even have anything to pay for the camp.
Coz actually at first, we planned to pay each about $200 because we thought we wouldn't earn enough money. As everyone can guess, it's very annoying since the 3 of us are not what you would call rich & since I particulary get lots of money problems. So, this is a big great surprise! We hope to get this last grant, & we would actually have $300 too much compared to the budget we made (that Raphie made, lol).

With it, we thought about giving more to father Nicolas & to rent a cine-camera(to film) or a numeric camera (to take polaroids).
Here we are... now I hope the big surprise won't be that we haven't this last grant, lol, would mean we would have to pay... let's hope *crosses fingers*

Yessssssssssssssss !!!!!!
We got our grants !!! We got our grants !!!
Now, that's 95% sure that we are going there!
5% not sure coz we never know, if war appears all of sudden, or riots or stuff, we won't be allow to go. :-(
We have to hope that it won't happen!
Sooooo, the bad part is that Jere didn't manage to see the priest to ask for the presentation of our project to the parishioners, nor a meeting with the other one to get our spiritual aspect ready.
But nevermind I guess, we will make it later, for now it's just Wooooooooooooo wooooooooooooo !!!
Damn money, it made us worry! Glad we haven't to worry about it anymore now :-D

Effective meeting!
Very very great! Things are clearer now.
We had a meeting, the three of us + Pierre-Jean, our "anirel" which helps us with our project.

So, about money, because it's our main problem... we are just counting very much on subsidies & if we don't get them, hmm, then we will have a BIG problem. So *crosses fingers* & let's hope we will get the $600 from one thing & the $750 from another one.
If we have those subsidies, then we will miss $200 but we plan to sell roses for the Mother's day at the end of the mass. We should be on 4 mass, 2 Saturday & 2 Sunday. Then, we will sell cakes like one month later on a weekend, probably at the end of two mass.
We also have to introduce our project to the parishioners because we are linked to the St Paul church & if we introduce our project to the parishioners, then they'll buy our stuff more easily.

Apart from the money, which is the most worrying part, everything else is doing good. We just gave back the file with all the informations to the group's leader & after he checked it he will send it up "there" in Paris & the people there will decide if we are allowed to go or not.
Jere will also phone to the chaplain of our church. We should have an encounter with him to prepare the religious part of the camp, particularily when we will meet the young people & have a spiritual exchange with them.

The dates of our camp are all set now, & I'll write to Father Nicolas & to the scouts in Niamey (the capital of Niger) to tell them about it all.

That's it! I'm rather happy since everything is going good, & my mom didn't even get upset as usual when I have a meeting with the scouts.

Bum bum bum, not tired yet, I'm gonna keep making some other pages :-D

News !
I've been vaccinated like one month ago, against two stuff, & I still have two other vacc to do.
Saturday we're gonna have a meeting with my friends & the couple who helps us to make our project.
& more important, I've build one more page & I feel like I'm gonna do more today since I've nothing else to do (bored since finals are over, lmao)