My Poems

there you go
dressed in black
all alone
loves what you lack
never seen by human eyes
always wearing a disguise
never seen the light of day
night is the time when you play
in your dreams the demons come
turning your whole body numb
in this world you are alone
forever you shall always roam
thinking you will never love
you runaway to die
saying not a single word
not even a goodbye
nobody shall ever know
that you have gone away
for you were never really there
not even for a day

not born of this world
but of a world of my own
i do not belong here
i must return home
this place is quite strange
i do not fit in
these people are different
ive sensed it within
though i must stay here
and humor these humans
as their little puppet
possesed by the demons
the sound of their laughter
reflects the joy in their hearts
which gets me to wondering
whats there to be happy about
theres fear in this place
fear of the unknown
they dont understand
what they do not know
i do not belong here
i must return home
where i can once again be
forever alone

sitting on a tree branch
alone
crying
cant see my eyes
my hands cover my face
you come to sit with me
you ask whats wrong
i dont answer
you ask again
i turn to you
my hands are red with blood
my eyes are closed
blood drips from them
you tell me to open them
i obey
you freeze
frightened
my eyes are cut
they bleed nonstop
i start coughing
i hold my throat
you move my hand
''goodbye'' is cut into my throat
i jump off the branch
i start running
i fall to the ground
dead

die the death
you deserve
loss of breath
scream unheard
pain so sharp
blood run free
feel your heart
beating cease
stopping pain
you caused me
cold black rain
wrought on thee
leave you there
as you die
in a snare
your design

around
all around
the dark memories gather
darkness falls
as if slain by the sun
we are lost
in an endless dark
never to be heard
never to be seen
always to be alone
never to be known
never to be loved
never to be noticed
never to be cared for
never to be there
we are always hiding
in the shadows
of our darkness

now i lay me down to sleep
i wish no more my soul to keep
and if i die before i wake
is the decision you shall make
kill me fast or kill me slow
i wonder how but shall not know
slit my wrists or cut my throat
just please make all my scars show
show the world my suffering
show them all my pain within
show them what they put me through
show me all that you can do
i loved you once and i still do
but love can sometimes kill you too
kill me now please do it fast
kill me before i wake at last
please help my soul come to an end
so i wont say this rhyme again

i close my eyes
feel my heart beating
the noise slowly flooding my ears
feeling my senses
awake till the point
of going numb again
anger flowing
through my veins
looking at this icy world
with a smirk on my face
knowing that i have to kick back
twice as hard
so they dont drown me
knowing i cant turn
or ill get a stab
crystal world is long gone
bloody smile
just waiting
for more

demons in
the twilight sky
ghostly visitors
haunting the night
allowing me
to dream into
the world of nightmares
darkened blue
where water tastes
like dust from hell
till one lone voice
wakes me to tell
Òthe one you love
is now long gone
he doesnt like you
you were again wrong
he never loved you
it was all a lie
the one for you now
has died in the night
alone you shall be
forever and always
with no one to care
for endless daysÓ

The dark memories gather
Surrounding me
Imprisoning me
No where to run
No where to hide
Through my madness I to escape
Only to find the shadow of death close behind
Now alone
Forever alone
My cascade of tears fall upon darkened eyes and blackened souls
The memories linger in my mind
Torturing me
Tormenting me
No place to go
No place to stay
Through the pain my heart beats faintly
only to realize my death is necessary
Now im dead
Forever dead
My flowing blood drips down to this wicked earth
that is my prison