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-.my dementia.-

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(4/11)
Once I dreamt a dream we would never be apart
We were meant for one another -- soulmates
You and I--
Now -- Through the time apart,
I've come to reality-- Back to reality
From the dreams you put me in--

Like a rose--
The seed of jealousy grows in me--
Prickled with the thorns of time--
It pricks Away at my heart

Is it true-- do I love and care about you
More with each breathe--Yes--
But I also hurt and ache more
In each second--
Hurt and ache more because of what
Has grown between us-- Rather than
what has grown within us--

The ache burns in my mind--
Like the heat of the desert sun--
The very burn plaques my thoughts--
Day to day -- Minute to minute--
I can not think straight-- From one
Second to another--

Is the disease curable?
Curable through irony--
For when I am with you,
I'm taken to a place--
Back to the place You
Once took me as a child--
And there I long to be,
Never or Forever--

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Forever
Do not be alarmed For I mean you no harm- My love is gentle like the wing of a dove And you may believe this is cliche- Sunbeams are dark to view compared to you This might not come out so alright Without our eyes we can't watch our lives But our mind controls how we read the line I never pictured, forever with you But I think about it all the time--

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Living - - Dreaming

I'm living through a dream
Nothing is what it may seem
Or is it my own nightmare
Either way, you surely don't care

When will the light shine on me
I can't even see through this
It's been dark and empty for days
My lifes so cold I can't feel my skin
My feelings just won't go away
Like footprints in the sand
I wish my memory would be erased
I wish God could reach me with his hand
And clear my past from my mind

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Facade
You go through every day
With your transparent disguise
When will you come through
And vent the troubles you hide
I know you are bothered
By so much inside

You flash me a fake smile
Whenever you see me
Why do you put me to this?
When will you be open?
Why must I go through this?

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#2
Your thoughts entwine with mine
It will be our loves sign
You shall see in time
You’re the will pulling me through
No one could of ever knew
I’m so in in love with you.

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(Version 1 -inspired by a Staind song-)
Its not easy to hide
All these feelings inside
So lonely this time
Can't believe your not mine

I didn't value our time together
Now we don't speak to each other
You mean the world to me
Don't know how this came to be

All the pain and the suffering
It's taking its toll
Vision of memories
Etched in my soul

And I'm left here
With nothing
Nothing to live for
But you.

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(Version 2 -inspired by the same Staind song-)
Well I know the words
But I can’t really speak them
To you –
I know all the ideas
But can’t begin to explain them
To you —
Now I’m eatin’ alive
Troubled inside
From everything that’s hidden
From you –
All of this
All of this is because
Of you –
But I can’t let it go
I can let you go
Like this –

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