Lost Thoughts

I don’t know what I’m going to do
There’s nothing I can say
I’ve tried so hard to help myself
But it’s not working for me
I keep going back and forth from fine to not okay
Yea I have thoughts of “hurting myself”
EVERY FUCKING DAY
Every time I’m alone I wonder
Why I asked for help anyway
My thoughts race from why I did it
In the first place
To why I didn’t prepare the right way
I want to get help
I really do
But I can’t stand, what I’m being put through