I laugh

I laugh to hide my feelings
Smile through my tears
You wouldn’t know the difference
Because you aren’t here

Another wrong decision
A choice I can’t unmake
Another time I have to question
The path I chose to take

I never had a second thought
Until you talked to me
Not the way we use to chat
But almost seriously

I use to wish you wanted more
But always thought you’d laugh
And now I wonder, looking back
What we might have had
I shouldn’t even wonder now
Or dwell upon the past
But now I really wonder…
I guess I should have asked