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What I'm doing now
I'm trying to sleep
but the darkness won't come
Thoughts and torments deep
of loneliness and requiem
Faces flash through my mind
sweaty bodies pressed tight
desire running me ragged and intertwined
finally feel the fright
that the first won't be the last
needing and wanting
my heart in a cast
the original lust filled craving
but knowing its all smoke and mirrors
i sit and i wait
afraid of love's regret filled scars
being a best friend and mate
i simply cannot be i need someone of my own to hold
Stare out at the world covered in dew
waiting for the next stranger
to make me forget how much love can damage
and how quickly love can turn to anger
i can't see how i can manage
moving on from this one to the next
never getting close, always keeping my distance
fulfilling my bodies need with sex
and i wonder how the world views my stance
feel the rejection sting
and the betrayal quick
like a needle in my vein
and a stab in the back
all i wanted was to be happy
all i wanted was to be loved
guess it was too much to ask and I'm being sappy
and somehow my hear feels mugged