Insanity or Insane? 

(My minds Eye)

In depths of darkness, I walk and stumble
Into a void of unknown, I cringe
Looking about me, I see the fear that stalks
The fear of what I have come to know as, Insanity

I am not insane, but I can not tell my mind that
All I can do is wait, and run from its grip
Once in a while, the talons of madness find their mark
And in these moments of insidious torment, I glow

The feeling of darkness, though black and unclear
Showers me with lucidity, and dementia all in one breath
I succumb to its greed, I feed from its veins of death
Life as I know it should be, flees from me in vain

Monsters with eyes of my past, encircle my brain
Towering over me with a grimace, as they watch the spectacle
This projection of pain, from days long forgotten
Have been drudged from the graves, that were dug in my mind

To let loose of this torture, is a feeling of failure
I have lost so much already, am I not able to hold anything
For if I let loose, will not death finally embalm me
Insanity I feel is comfort, it allows me to live


James Merwin
02/18/2000