The Will To Carry On

Open eyes soon shut again
Only to live out a dream
Some of the visions are lovely
Some of them cause you to scream

A vision I hold in my mind
A vision of just what may be
I pray to the Lord up above
That the vision does not come to be

I see myself huddled and crying
I see crimson that stains where I lay
I see my life bleeding before me
Please take this vision away

Come now to me the goodness
I know in my life it is there
But just how long should I suffer
Will the pain forever be there

Answers to questions not answered
So onward I slowly must trod
Would it be easier to give up
And lay down into the sod

Yes it would make some things better
Yes I would worry no more
But I know that there is a reason
That God allows me to feel pain evermore


James D. Merwin
3:40AM 11/22/2000