i dont wanna sleep
Mood:  caffeinated
Topic: journal
I was told a while back that i might have borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder. i have no clue what these are except the bipolar thing cuz i was on medication for it a while back i stopped taking it after UB got done well but anyways what the hell are these things i am confused i havent even told her the whole story!!! jesus christmas trees!!! am i really that messed up i took a few quizez i put some of them online the results that is yeah its all cool i didn't have school today yeah but its kinda and why. cuz somegirls dad died yeah but i didn't really like her though but i am sorry for her her dad died the same waymine did but at least she knows how he died and didn't just find out like a few months ago while her mom was screaming at her that it was all her fault i think of that day everyday because its all stuck in my memory every fucking day with my mom was hell. there was hardly any good days if there was the bad ones just drown em all out i am like really hyper from taking caffeine pills(my grandma said it was ok, but only one) so i could stay up and finish a paper for english and a 2 liter of mt. dew and im like halfway done but there is an extreme overload of caffeine i gotta go like run around outside but iccant cuz my grandma will get mad because i was outside after dark whatever shes mean anyway. i couldn't even go see my friend until 530 and by then she was leaving to go to her sisters house its alomst 11 and i am supposed to be sleeping now according to my grandma but i have to go now cuz hshes coming!!!