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unhinged poems
UNHINGED #1
your the blade that cuts me
listening
oh so quietly for the sounds of my spine about to break
about to snap like my sanity
we all do eventually
darken in widows and razors blades
only a few minites left to make something beautiful
reasons why i left you all alone
uncaring and numb like me
finger nails marks begin to bleed
i meant nothing and felt something
wish i could take it all away
all the pain, torment, and suffering
my words come out like projectial vomitting
but i can't take it all away
how can i fix myself?
i love giving but now i feel jaded
tearing me apart garduley till i am bearly fuctional
lost within my self pitty
i thought i found something to fill this hole
aparently not
UNHINGED #2
wanting something/ recieving nothing
listening closely/ hearing static
all I see is shit/ wishing dearly for a hit
unbalanced and almost unreal
caring for someone besides myself/ forgetting about myself
lost too deep within/ I'm feel so empty
caring too much for others/ I lost myself
keep searching/ wondering around in a pitch black room
brite lights become dim/ now I have to start again
who am I/ I forgot who I was long ago
too much feeling/ not enough feeling
either turn it off or get hurt
cold or warm
I can't find a common ground
UNHINGED #3
betrayed
stabbed in the back/all the laughter
crushed/why won't they stop
my mind is shit/it's in your fist
smeared on my face/i see my disgrace
reflection in the mirror/broken strades of glass
misplaced hate/say it too my fuckin' face
the people who love me really dislike me
my self image is being cut away with a pendlum of hurt fulled words
does my life matter/but it goes on like a badly written soap opera
i love you
i use you
i hate you
i didn't mean it but i can't take it back
now we're all fucked
disconnection is the reason why were all dysfunctional mindless sheep
crumbling pathways of good memories
why not slit your wrist
do it right the first time around
so many die before thier time/prime
lies cause cries
i scream but it's still unheard
my lungs are bleeding
actions ignored because of the pain i caused you all
all i feel is pain and it's mostly my fault
someday i'll find what i need to fix it
UNHINGED #4
i've become joyless
it hurts to smile
every moment in my life where i should be happy all i feel is pain
listless unable to sleep because of the thoughts in my head/ ocean of choas
i don't know if their good or bad
what is that exzacty?
can you say that without your mask on?
is it so difficult to accompish?
so many lies/so how can i tell if you meant what you said
how can my thoughts be stable?
do i think for myself anymore
creature of habbit
when it gets too hard let others do it for you
fuck that/fuck you too
i think for myself/you may not like me
even thou i'm upset with myself and my actions
i have no masks
what comes out of my mouth is what i feel
what comes out of my mouth is what i think
you all may not like it but that's what your gonna' get
i will not sugar coat it
fuck you for trying to make me feel and act fake
i will not conform to your ideals
shove it down my throat and i'll spit it up in your fuckin' face!
UNHINGED #5
i want a release/besides your blood on my hands
our wants and needs/can i make a stand
do i have believes/not just what's in front of my face
tangable things that last/it all disappears
now i have nothing/did i have anything before
i want to hold on to something real
it lasts more that the rest/please make it last
i can only hope and wish it does
little specs of sand running through my fingers
time goes by so fast/i'm left behind
inside the hour glass on the bottom buried beneith the sands of time
among many ideals trapped in a void
pure desent thoughts never escape this emptiness
blue blood staggnet in my veins
never uttered to the countless lost souls
pondering exiesance and wasting time
to go forward you have to step back/don't dewl
then move on and live your life without regrets
i have to take my own advise/please don't listen to me
UNHINGED #6
i asume too/but do i
believing in myself/believing in others
seeing the truth/you only see what you want to see
do i see the truth/blinded by believes
are we real or just what a person has in their dreams
listen to me speak lies/hinding behind falsehoods
i want you to except me for me/not just for what's on the outside
deep inside/stripped me down
be opened only to be closed/don't tear me down and take advandge of me
what's under my clothes?
what's under my skin?
am i human?
naked in front of you
I have nothing to hide
UNHINGED #7
my thoughts are aimless and unbound
going through many mazes/deeper within the darksprial
so many trials/so much is unsaid
different points of view/dammit i have one
between time and space/life is on hold
so many things unattended/goals unbanded
i move on too quickly/now i'm paying for my mistakes
not enough planning for the future
doing too many of the wrong things
blinded by wants instead of seeing what i need
it was in front of my face
my mind isn't as opened as it once was
too much hate and pain has bound me
closed/unwilling to except new content
love, confrit, longing for another is no longer a motieve in my life
but i can not be dissconnected
i must not be selfish anymore
my child is more important than i am
it's life has a chance
i must be there/somewhere near
hopefully it's mother will forgive me
never make promises you can't keep
in a world that hate you even being human
my love for you is eternal
you are my child and i will always love you
in mind, body, and soul
even if i've never seen you before i know this to be so
UNHINGED #8
memories of delicate minds free of lies
these small pieces come together slowly
little particales with quiet voices speak
the hearts of the young are iniesent and sweet
a wish made on a new being
be safe and out of reach of harm
so much from a distant is so hard
hopefully you will grow with love instead of hate
small hands and feet
forget what others say about me
you are my child and I will always love you
a bookmark in your baby book
turn the page and live your life
somehow I will be a part of it
someday I will hold your hand and be with you
UNHINGED #9
the rain pores
edit the content of the sky from the forground to the background
inside the painting we weep for our love ones
raping my thoughts
you think your free of blurred vision
fiends haunt me inside this box
absoluty fill with darkness
red eyes peir in throught the dank
if it was light as day
they have no shadows
before I saw the creature's face
the mirror has cracks too
bloodly fists and a frown reflecting in the mirror
listen to my mind break without a trace
under the bridge with the knife in my hand
barely living in this maze of pain
can't find a cure
the drugs don't work
without a clue
beneith the sheep
gone from your presence
death is the void
the darksprial is life
UNHINGED #10
slip back into this dark corner
it made perfect sense
right next to that piece of you
i was listening to you
too close to realize i lose a bigger chunk of myself
stoled a glance and gain a chance
but blow it because i was too impusive
to sloppy like the mess i made
did i fuck up or is that all i can give
giving more then the rest of these beings with imperfections
did i reciece an infection that spread to to my mind
fooled by lust
thinking i can have everything tanglable
disappearing from my sight
your this light that made me whole
it slipped back too fast
out the corner of my eye
a memory lost in the blackness of time
UNHINGED Final
i threw it all away on a gamble
this fabric of time needs to be reasembled
theses fingers closing in
life trapped inside a fist
it's enough to make you pissed
you keep it inside way too long
pent up rage is far too dangerous
so quiet when i shouldn't be
stand up to ones who make you esteem crumble
focussing too much on hate makes you stumble
why do you listen to all the wrong things
bound to repeat those same mistakes
it's not like your alone
even if you feel that way
i've never seemed to learn that fact
i'm like the rest of the pack
barely functional and on the edge of sanity
you think you wouldn't be that way with love on all sides
but you igorned it and feel sorry for yourself
dewling on the past and never going forward
what's in the past is in the past
it can only hurt you if you let it
fuck your stupid regrets
stop being child and fuckin' deal with it
Unhinged poems written by Mike Davey
Copyrighted: Mike Davey 2002 All Rights Reserved