did you really listen when i said no the first time
you always hear what you want to hear when it comes to something you really want to do
it's been done to you
the victim becomes the agresser
the cycle is complete for the moment
your really fucked now in more ways than one
we all are
do you really think your free
no going back now
no where to hide
maybe in the back of your mind but that probaly won't protect you for long
tainted flesh
taste me decay
it's in you now
your mind will soon fail
there's still nowhere for you to go
do you mind not running to far
do you just plainly don't mind at all
do we really have a clue
am i worth a damn
maybe not because the messages are blurred and it's hard to make them out
the blood in my viens are stagnet and time stands still
TAINTED #2
you watch these things in front of your face
you try not to do theses things in your own bed
this bed is made out of a man without a spine
listen to reason and ask why
you try not be this way but it just turned out that way instead
you want to try new things but people disappove and you end up never
doing them
the little voice in the back of your head tells you not to do it
you say fuck it and do it anyways
now you end up fucking up and hurting the ones you love in the process
it always harder to just behave and let it go
but instead you blame others
you blame it on this disconnection you think you have
TAINTED #3
by the way what ever happened to just trusting people in the first
place
was it just thrown out the fuckin' window
the good people get pushed aside while the asshole just cut in line
they always have a excuse to treat you poorly
the ones worth a damn get a quick dick up the ass while the rest of you
motherfuckers just get away with it
the motherfuckers that don't desevres your trust let alone your respect
in the first place
it fills me with rage
I'm so fuckin' tired of bullies who treat others like shit because they
themselves can't cut it and need to lower themselves by picking apart kind hearted
people
so this is for all you fuckin' assholes out there who think it's cool to
belittle people and make them feel like shit
why don't you just beat your own selves up and look in the mirror and see how
small you really are
instead of us giving you the power over us by bringing us down with all your
fuckin' bullshit
TAINTED #4
my mind is death
my body is decay
theses thoughts are rancid
this taste is in my mouth is bitter
like a sliver in the back of my mind
borrowing deeper
ever so deeply
trying to find a place to hide
finding a place to reside
sometimes hidden from myself at times
just under the skin
just under your nose
taunting you
never finding rest
you'll just end up wasting your time
it's so hard to feel warmth
why not just die
this is the way in which you desend into my arms
back off and feel my decay around you
i'll pentatrate your mind
take in your esence and leave you with nothing
what will be my resolve
what will become of us all
this worn out shell will shatter cutting others
this tiresome play is done
TAINTED #5
carnal forces pull me further away
the ones in front of face just push me away
they say one thing and mean another
trust has become a double edge sword swung right at me
just missing my head
but it sure hit something important because I don't feel right anymore
just keep drifting while I'm awake
not dreaming much when I sleep
unbalanced and I really thought I was begining to heal
another delusion made up from my mind to deal with this disconnection I think I have
theses problems I think I somehow have but maybe it's all in my head
looked past the flesh and all I see is shit
I tried to give people the benefit of a doubt
but instead I'm missing a piece of myself in the process
who knows maybe someday I just won't give a fuck and it won't bother me anymore
TAINTED #6
for what you thought
insides turn to grey
my wounds are bleeding again
there's nothing new under the moon
so what's your mood
i feel like i could just conform at times
i feel the need to do more than lie
something has come out and will put you on your the ass
they displays my inward torment to such a great mass
on display for all to make a big gas
the feelings seem to come out as an attack
it twists and turns within my stomack
this person has become a worm
disect me into a mess
i can't clerify what comes next
TAINTED #7
cut your flesh
eat your mind
I am so behind
which path do I take
I just can't deside
we're almost out of time
your words mean nothing
get in line you little shit
your mine
I'll take what I want and leave you with nothing
does it really matter if you cry
trying so hard to leave it all behind me
now something new has come out of the ashes
sometimes I just want to be good
but in the end I'll waste more time
what is good and evil?
the line blurs within the dark spiral
now what comes out should be in focus
is there order to the choas
I sure hope so
maybe one day the chain will break
maybe one day I'll finally be in control
TAINTED #8
was my life a joke?
is it really just a fuckin' joke?
did you take the last toke?
feel the decay inside growing with each exhale
at least their's something growing unlike much anything else
taste this familarity
whine but hold it in
let it build up till it exploses around everyone
good idea pal
fuck it, just tear you eyes out
I don't want to see what I'm about to do to you
I just want to hear you scream
feel my agony and endure my pain
fuck you for playing theses games
I have no heart just logic to enduce
my emotions are frayed and the nothingness has engolfed me
the time has come to end this scene
something new has come out the darkness to embrass
but do I take it in or just move on instead
should just give in to the dark and move away from the light
which path do I take?
TAINTED #9
under a stone
within a spiral
trying to pretend that everything's ok
the spiral unfolds
I come out from under the stone
trying to pretend that everthing's solid
life is like a spiral spinning out of control
I look at the stone and wonder to myself
why did I leave it's confrit from the light
life loops into a web of lies
put there to make you think you have control over your own life
faberacations made to keep the pieces from falling apart
mind, body and soul are unbalenced
listen to your thoughts play games
feel your body breaking down slowly day by day
hoping someday you'll have faith in something
having trouble finding faith in yourself to complete a daily task
I wish it was easier to just wake up because it sure is harder to fall asleep
dreamland is wicked place
where your lost in abivion
liner time caughts up with you when your awake
now you realize your alone
now you can't find your stone
it would of protected you from the blinding light
all you see now is the spiral just in front of you
all you feel is it sucking your soul dry
dying inside your fraglie shell alone again
TAINTED final
eyes become shut much like a wounded heart
actions are hidden because I choose to keep them from others
those who dare osterise me
they can't talk to the blackboard and write their name with a check by it
I've become very anal theses days
I'm sick of the person I've become
so does the drying flower without nurisment
an unsemulative mind wants more than the usual life can offer
sometimes I just stand in place and wonder what the fuck I am doing here in the first place
always question things you don't understand
don't feel stupid because your not
at least you can form a opinion instead of being voidless
fuck you preprogrammed pieces of shit
you fuckin' hold us back
take your fuckin' biblebelt and wrap it tight around your red neck
sometimes it's ok to be alittle selfish
It's always good to stand up for what you believe in
as long as all you motherfuckers out there don't bring us down with all your narrowminded bullshit
