STILLBORN #1
I went torwards the right and then the left
There has to be a middle ground somewhere
A way to balence your good and evil
Is right or wrong just a persective of the individual?
How can you make anything pure when nothing is?
Is it really that simple?
There's so much gray out there to deal with
How can I deal with anger in a postive way?
How can I break the cycle and promote change?
The darkness within is so close now that I feel like I"m becoming two seprate people
The light within is so distant now I'm feeling lost again
I have to balence both into a new being before either one takes control and cancels each other out
You can't be one extreme or you'll lose your grip on reality
You can't lean too far to the left or the right
If you do you'll just fall down
It sure is hard to just breathe
It sure is hard to just believe
How can I believe in anything if I don't first believe in myself?
STILLBORN #2
Do I have to kiss your ass to get what I want?
When did you become so damn cold and uncaring?
Did it just happen over night or maybe I didn't notice it before?
Who the fuck are you anyways?
I am tired of the control you have over me and it has to stop now
You are no longer the master and I am not your slave
I am in control of my emotions
They are no longer yours to own
Don't you have your own or are you that desprite?
Are your attemps at provoking me to anger really worth it?
Maybe your as empty as I am sometimes
Build your own estem without bringing mine down
Leave mine alone and get your own
Leave me in peace and get a fuckin'life
Everything comes full circle and eventually you will reap what you sow
STILLBORN #3
love is a curse but it always worst when it hurts
shouldn't you gain more enjoyment thur such a beautful emotion
why can't just have a little bit of that ray of sunshine?
I recieve nothing more than the night's dark sky instead
which sometimes brings me confrit but not in this paticular sitution
if love means nothing but pain I'd rather not have it at all
I know without it you wouldn't be who you are today
but there has to be more light out and less darkness sometimes
because it's weighing me down
I look in the mirror and reckinise myself less and less
this darkness inside is growing everyday
I having trouble keeping my conpossure and letting it control my reponses
who or what is presence changing me within?
is it really me anymore or just another person?
is it the devil or just repressen?
maybe I just more far gone than I thought
STILLBORN #4
the days blend together coming home to a empty bed
wishing someone would replace this pillow I'm laying next to
it is so hard to fall to sleep with these snakes whispering in my ear
warmth would be a welcoming friend in this time of need instead of
them taughting me
I just to sleep but I hate to wake up
reality set in and you remember where you are
fuck, now what?
I just like to get used to being alone
this fuckin' tone in my voice could put anyone asleep
why doesn't it work on me either?
why can't see my own aura and get a clue?
what else can I lose?
STILLBORN #5
all I hear is shit which is still coming out of my mouth
maybe I'm being punished for some wrongful doing I committed in the past
maybe in other life because I really don't see what I've done
was it really that hanis of a crime?
now it seems to of caught up with me
causing me so much pain wrapped within this tiny neral maze
Am I allowed to be happy and content in this life?
why can't I just keep a good mood just little longer this time around?
instead my head keeps spinning out of control
losing the strength to set and achieve gains
I'm having trouble completing simple daily tasks again
but I glad I still have the power to go on and live day by day
STILLBORN #6
It's becoming very difficult to keep my anger in check
building inside a glass cage
All I want to do is release it in a positive way
if I don't I might make a ugly mess of things again
I don't want to hurt anyone else
I just want to get along with other people
see the good in them were normality it is not seen
hopefully you'll see some worth in me because I'm still trying
running out of time to put the pieces back together again
STILLBORN #7
how more can I be abused?
how more can I abuse others to fit my needs?
how can you be made to servise me?
trying so hard to make you feel good
is there a time where I can feel good with you too?
are we all doing this alone
all this negativity reproduced in a weak person sitting so quietly
mumble back and form in the dark
are we going to learn nothing and remain in the darkness forever?
where is the common ground that binds us together?
the trashcan is overflowing with good intentions
leave them at the bottom of the can, please
my heart can not take anymore fake promises
your just leading me on as always
STILLBORN #8
you rather not see me or talk to me
only when you need something from me
to make you feel better about yourself
while I contine to die inside slowly
what cause's you to act this way?
sometimes I feel like the world's crumbling around me
just a few pieces left before it's all gone
I wonder if anyone's going to be there when I'm the ground crying
my tearducks are dry and there's no tears running down my cheeks
I will not resolve to do anything this new year
It never comes true and it's a waste of time
I'm tired of hope and the energy it takes to go thur with things
worn out beliefs and empty promises don't mean anything
they feel as hallow as I feel right now
looking at the ceiling for cracks
looking at my eyelids for cracks also well
maybe I'll find what I'm searching for in my dreams
STILLBORN #9
taped over your mouth so nothing bad would comes out
can't remove it because it would hurt alot
red your thoughts when the actions were caught
beneith the smile was deseption the whole time
the red tears stained your face with your distaste for anyone close to you
I thought I knew you alittle bit better
I guess I was wrong again
we can't begin when you won't let me in
was there ever a key to the door to your heart?
was there ever a time that it could of been unlocked?
each step leading up to this point now has left a bitter taste in my mouth
the reason why is wearing thin for you to make up your mind
I was touched for a time when I thought you cared for me
problems build up under so much pressure
hopefully the release will be a good and no one will be hurt either
there's more at stake this time
STILLBORN final
I don't recall this so called resolve
It's better to just go out and do it yourself
There's no use in wishing on a star
Looking for the sparks within your tried eyes
I tryed to be kind but I ended up just wasting your time
Fasting far from the carnal desires
Listen to my will lessen behind my voice
It was my chose to end this trial and begin to not look backwards
I've stay in the past and didn't go forward
I should of just let it go and moved on years ago
I made my own trap and lived in it far too long
It's time to empty the trash of my life
It's time not to be nice and lose myself anymore
It's time to be true to myself once and for all
Believing in god is a easy way out of personal responsiblity
It is a dead end and will get you nowhere real fast
The only thing I believe in is myself and myself alone
When their gone all you have is yourself
I accept being alone and try to deal with it now
It's a work in progress and I'm still alive
STILLBORN poems written by Mike Davey
Copyrighted: Mike Davey 2005 - 2006 All Rights Reserved