Running

Running, running away so far
To clouds that require no energy
No perfect heartbeat to keep going
To keep running away from this life
This pain I have keep inside to hide
The secrets you don’t know
And can never discover
For if I stop running you will know
The truth and the lies will be uncovered
To reveal the ugliness deep down
To the core of my being that taints
A pure heart of a child that does not know
The real pain in this world
Because she holds innocence in her eyes
That look up at me with bright hazel hopes
And dreams she will not find when
She realizes the destruction of her own body
In her mind sleeps the fear of abandonment
That holds her sanity when she pushes away first
To get out and hold on to the dignity that
Someone once found in all of her pieces
And picked up to say, "Hey, you can make it,"
Though shattered on the floor she can’t see
Truth that has always been blurred by
Quick fixes and oblivious parents
So she has learned that life can only be good
If she never lets herself feel the pain anymore,
If she never lets go of ambivalence,
Or the fears that are buried right under the scars and
She can keep going only if she never stops,
I can survive if I just keep running.