This page is a bit of a mess. One of these days I'll work on it again.
Promise
I tried to think of the most special present to give to you.
I spent hours looking. Always coming back to this one gift.
And even though I'd love to give you all the stars in heaven in a pretty container, or perhaps the moon wrapped in a beautiful bow, or even morning rays of sunlight captured in a jar. The one thing that I think would be the very best present is but a simple thing from me to you.....
I promise I will love you forever.
2004
Waiting
Day after day
I wait
Experiences become memories
I wait
Hair of brown grays
I wait
Hands as if a strangers
I wait
Children become adults
I wait
Desire turning to hope
I wait
Passion kept alive
I wait
Memories fading
I will wait my life for you
2003
~W.I.P.~
To the edge I traveled
No assurance of what to be
So many hours I traveled
Only to be
Where I began
1995
Again
Hopes of new
Dreams of passion
Romance fleeting
Hearts beating strong
Left to wither
Lies abundant
Nights so cold
Memories left to hold
Time heals all
Again
2002
Distance
Days so long
Nights even longer
Miles spanning
Physically seperate
Every tick of the clock
Bringing us closer
Touched so deeply
Longing to feel your touch
You're always with me
Wanting you next to me
Miles seperate physically
Hope units spiritually
Love binds soulfully
2004
Hope fulfilled
Dreams unfolded
Prayers answered
Love gained
Life lived
Of all things in my life
I enjoy you the most
2004
Complete
Lifes lessons learned
Mistakes made
Chances taken
Oppurtunities missed
Love lost
Love gained
Hurt shaped walls
Surround my heart
Barriers placed
Persistance removes
Your love
I'm complete
2004
Jesse
Of gentle heart
I do long
With tender touch
I do feel
Of dreams shared
I do hope
With kindness shown
I do believe
With love overflowing
I am inspired
2004
My Angel
You made hope worthwhile
You made reasons for faith
You touched my heart
You moved my soul
Never before so complete
Never before so loved
You bring smiles to my heart
You kiss away all my rain
2004 (written for and because of my angel)
Selfish
I want to see your smile
I want to feel your touch
I want to share your hopes
I want to know your dreams
I want to hear your laughter
I want to wake by your side
I want to fall asleep in your arms
I want to fill your heart with love
I want you!
2004
Friend
Comfort always felt
Dreams shared
Secrets kept
Shoulder to cry on
Hand offered when I fall
Compassion expressed
Always understood
True connection
2004
A heart breaking is the loudest sound unheard
2003
Falling
How is it that you fall in love,
then in turn you also fall out of love?
How far will you fall out of love?
How many times does it take to fall
out of love before you reach the bottom?
Falling in love though, it is so wonderful to know that when you fall in love that someone special
is waiting to catch you.
2004
Enough?
Words exchanged
Malicious intent
Heart, Mind, and Soul
Never to be the same
No effort will change
Only having had enough
Will bring a new life
2004
Realization
Day after day
Wondering, Questioning, Seeking
Questions unanswered
Questions not asked
Worn exhaustion
Frustrated confusion
Holiding onto nothing
Hope no longer present
There has to be more
2004
Afraid
When did I quit living
When did I lose myself
So many chances not taken
Left for another to explore
Why didn't I open the door
One foot at a time
Inching slowly
Your hand in sight
I want you more then my fear controls
2004
Innocence
I drew you a picture
You didn't have time to look
I reached out for you
You pushed away my hand
I adored you with innocence
Corrupted with anger
I love you endlessly
You said I never loved you
Scars slow to heal
You said I would understand when I grew up
I grew into a woman mommy
But I don't understand
2004
Forever
If I told you I'd love you forever
Would you know how long I'd love you for?
Day after day longing, wanting, needing.
I know how long forever is.
For everyday without you
Makes loving you forever seem not very long at all.
2003
How
How do I tell you that your smile
touches me deeper then any sunrise
How do I tell you that looking into your eyes
I see endless happiness
How do I tell you that one touch of your hand
is like touching heaven
How do I tell you that I need you
as much as I need the air we breath
How do I tell you that every moment we are apart
it feels as if my soul will die
How do I tell you
that I love you
2003
Two Hearts
Whispered softly unto me
A treasured keepsake
Of memories since made
The promises of each dawning yet to come
Wrapped in elation
Unimaginable joy
Glorified feelings so true
Feelings brought by none other
Than the gentle touch of your heart
Beating side by side with mine
Rebecca 2003
Two Lives Seperate
Here we are
Together,Alone
Solid walls built of tension
Neither to blame,Both at fault
Hearts both broken
Time to mend
Life to live, Once again
Where do we begin,Where do we end
2003
For You
I want to look up at the stars
and know what you see
I want to listen to a song
and know what you here
I want to wrap my arms around you
and know what you feel
I want to watch you sleep
and know your dreams
I want to see your expressions
and know your hopes
I want to look into your eyes
and know between my heart and yours what love is
2003
Never Again
Never again will I trust so freely
Never again will I believe so deeply
Never again will I feel so strongly
Never again will I fall so hard
Never again will I love so completly
Never again will I find anyone like you
2003
You
Within your eyes,hope
Within your arms, comfort
Within your words, trust
Within your touch, passion
Within your soul, compatibility
Within your heart, love
Within time, faith
2003
Torn
Mind racing
Thoughts confused
Heart aching
Tears streaming
Answers unclear
Love given
Love taken
Arguments surfacing
Pain caused
Hurt felt
No longer hand in hand
Torn
2003
Miss You
I see your smile in the sunrise
I feel your tears in the rain
I hear your voice in the wind
I close my eyes hoping to see you
Reaching my hand out for you
Where are you
2003
I can't
I can't see your smile
I can't feel your touch
I can't lose myself in your eyes
I can't kiss your lips
I can't feel your warmth
I can't help ease your worries
I can't share my secrets
I can't love you
For your heart belongs to another
2003
Complicated Simplicity
School yard giggles
Glances stolen
Lips bitten
Butterflies fluttering
A smile touches our lips
Tenderness shared
Warm feelings felt
Secrets shared
Caring apparent
Dreams unfolding
Passion expressed
Hopes reveled
Hearts as one
Souls touching
Love so simple,We complicate
2003
Chance
Days spent wondering
Hours spent thinking
What if we were dealt a different hand
What if we were to share yesterday
What if we were to hope
What if we wished really hard
What if we tried
What if we took that first step
What if we walked hand in hand
What if we lived happily ever after
What if......
2003
Heartache
H ere we are again
E ach of us apart
A ching hearts
R easons unknown
T orn
A lone again
C omfort no more
H earts broken
E veryone hurts
2003
Hold On Tighter
Faith will be challenged
Hold on
Hope will be lost
Hold on
Dreams shattering
Hold on
Reason will be lost
Hold on
Doubt will be present
Hold on
Life will be hard
Hold on
Love will be questioned
Hold onto my hand tighter
2003
Live Happily
Yesterdays gone
Live for today
The present is yet to come
Remember the past
Live for today
Look forward to tomorrow
Love like your hearts never been broken
Trust as if you've never heard a lie
Have faith, You have nothing to lose
Live all your days as if there will be no more
2003
If I Had It To Do All Over Again
If I had it to do all over again,
I would have listened more and talked less.
I would have hugged more instead of placing distance.
I would have spent more time with you,
and less time with my own problems.
I would have visited more, and
spent less time making up excuses.
I would have been more tolerant,
and overlooked harsh words.
I would have seen your pain,
instead of denying it.
If I had it to do all over again
I would have told you how much I loved you,
and how much you meant to me.
I'm so sorry that I didn't know what I know now.
In Loving memory of Katherine Bray, you are sadly missed by many.
Rebecca 2000
Love's Complexity
Love, A simple word yielding multiple complexity.
What is Love?
A word of endearment?
A word of affection?
A word of trust?
A word of faith?
A word of bliss?
A word of shared feelings?
A word of stature?
A word of security?
A word of heartfelt truth?
How is it shown?
A kiss?
A touch?
A look?
A gesture?
A flower?
A gift given?
An embrace?
An expectation of knowing?
A spoken word?
So many feelings, so many ways, I know it best when I am with you for my heart speaks love so clearly.
Rebecca 1999
Little Time
Busy days
Hectic schedule
Many distractions
Multiple interruptions
Several inconveniences
Even though my day may not always allow for me to spend every minute with you. I hope you know that not a minute passes that I don't miss you. You are in my heart and on my mind.
Rebecca 1999
My Life
I don't see myself without you
I can't imagine my life not being ours
I awake everyday because of you
My smile is yours
My happiness is yours
My dreams are yours
My feelings are yours
My heart is yours
My touch is yours
My hopes are yours
My prayers are for you
You are My everything....If ever you wonder why I have given so much of me to you....It's simple you see....
My smile is because of you...My happiness is just loving you....My dreams are filled with you...My feelings are felt because of how you make me feel....My heart beats so strongly because of my love for you....My touch is completely yours because my dear you are the only one I want to touch....My hopes are that I can make you happy....My prayers are that you will be happy and well....
You see my love....
You are my life
Silent Tears
Vivid tears stream down, dry eyes
So loud is the sound of a heart breaking, making not a sound
The world crumbles, leaving all intact
Hurt so apparent, all is fine
Words unspoken, so much said
Destructive pain overwhelming, smiles exchanged
Loneliness engulfs, so many friends around
Life is horrible, so much to live for
Bitterness controls, such a sweet person
No matter how well we think we know a person there are always things we don't know, often things aren't as they appear.
Rebecca 1992
You and Me
I am strong
But, lean on you when I feel weak
I am secure
But, indulge in the surety that you offer
I am independent
But, enjoy knowing I can depend on you
I am happy
But, adore you when you add to my happiness
I know I am a good person
But, amazed at how you make me feel I'm a better person
I am humble
But, you make me feel perfect
I am in love
But, you make me love you more
Rebecca 1999
My Love,
My feelings for you have no boundaries, no barriers, no conditions.
I love you when I wake up
I love you when I go to sleep
I love you when I'm happy
I love you when I'm mad
I love you today
I love you tomorrow
I loved you yesterday
I love you when you compromise
I love you when your stubborn
I love you when you cuddle with me
I love you when you turn your back to me
I love you when you smile
I love you when you frown
I love you when you give me attention
I love you when you ignore me
My Love, I Love You Always
Rebecca 1999
Dear Love,
How long has it been since I've seen the glow of your smile? Felt the warmth of your touch? Seen the reassurance in your eyes? How long since I've rested in your peace?
Did you ever believe that through all the trials and tribulations that I would not see you through all of them? In all the pain I could softly brush against your heart consoling the pain. Even in the hurry of your life I've taken and have given you precious moments to be cherished. Though you question...... my honesty my simplicity my one reason for being.
For if only one moment that I am able to embrace you and to let you see.
Trying to answer and leave no doubt though leaving so much for which there is no answer. Unable to erase the doubt the fear the confusion.
Rest upon knowing I have not forsaken nor have I abandoned you on your own. I am in the shadow of your need. Awaiting your sweet voice your request your demand.
Patiently undemanding not expecting. I wait here in silence until you remember me. For all I am is simply love......love an emotion within your hearts reach.
Rebecca 1998
Someday
Yesterdays I thought of you
My heart shed a tear
The memories all but forgotten
They are always so dear
I wish I could have stopped in time
No room for things to change
I liked them just the way they were
Now your absence seems so strange
Though things have not been lost
Your always on my mind
Held deeply in my heart
Someday we will be together again
In a place of another time
Rebecca 1985
Something Promised
Upon the wings of a pale white dove
A promise so pure was bestowed
Carried through the sands of time
From the beginning to the end
Held close tightly wrapped
Guarded and safe from natural elements
Entwined...Embedded...beating strong within
Granted to those who accept
Often seen...Envied...Desired
Sometimes overlooked Sometimes misread
Often not spoken left for another's lips to speak
Only the coldest cannot feel its radiating warmth
When felt strongly by two true hearts
Felt as if the two hearts beat as one
Feelings of joyful bliss promised
Eternity defined by these feelings
Moments in time bring smiling memories
Every dawning brings new found pleasures to be shared
To see these two...such sweetness is expressed
Of the lucky are these that share in this
The magical creation carried
From the beginning to the end
Living...Engulfing...Growing within our hearts
Held and treasured deep within
With every beat of my heart my love grows stronger
Growing stronger for you my love
Rebecca 1999
Unknown Destiny
As I think I realize
All my dreams, wishes, and hopes
Have yet to been fulfilled
Yet as I question with open mind
Is my destiny waiting to unfold
Or shall I embrace each coming moment
With open arms and heart
To search for a destiny of which
I know no name
Rebecca 1998
My Journey
Through many journeys in life
Many a paths I've traveled
So many stones have I turned
I may have wandered astray
Gotten lost or just turned around
Perhaps for time long past
But as I look upon my journeys
I can rest assured in my decisions
For they led me to you
Rebecca 1998
How Much
I know I haven't said it lately or perhaps haven't shown it enough. I would like to take this opportunity to do so now...
Today I think of our yesterdays
Yesterday I thought of when we first met
When we first met I thought of the day
When I would say these words to you.....
I LOVE YOU MORE TODAY THAN ALL OF OUR YESTERDAYS
Rebecca 1998
Simply You
I hear your soft breath
Feel your bodies warmth
Laying close I watch the moonlight kiss your brow
The gentleness of your ways
O so apparent
A look of peace is about you
I think of our yesterdays
I think of our today's
Which slip into our tomorrows
Placing light kisses upon your cheek
Patiently awaiting the dawn
Resisting sleep not wanting to miss a memory
I place my head against your chest feeling warm and secure
My eyes grow tired in your embrace
Slowly I slip into a dream of you
Waking to warm kisses of dawns forthcoming
Smiling radiantly as the feeling of you watching me occurs
Leaning I kiss you good morning
As our past memories begin to unfold
Rebecca 1999
Loves Language
It's spoke in a touch
A single glance confirms
A soft smile reassures
An innocent brush
A loving caress
One kiss
A sigh of contentment
A deep gaze
Concerned gestures
The language your body speaks
Sometimes love speaks loudest
With no words at all
Rebecca 1999
Time
Childhood Memories
Teenage treasures
Early adult eagerness
Passing times
Fading remembrance
Yesterday so far away
Today is to short
Tomorrow is to close
Time so little
Memories so few
To stop time, A blessing
Rebecca 1999
What Do You Do
When was the last time you heard what a friend was saying?
Many are the differences between listening and hearing.
When was the last time you expressed concern?
Many are the differences between true concern and rushed pretending.
When was the last time you appreciated a friend?
Many are the differences between genuine appreciation and to use.
When was the last time you accepted a friend as they are?
Many are the differences between advice and judgment.
When was the last time you showed sincere compassion?
Many are the differences between empathy and sympathy.
Rebecca 1999
Loneliness
Silently I ache because of the inwardly hurt
As I lay sobbing
All I long for is a gentle caress, a tender kiss, perhaps a warm hug
But, in realizing
My dreams are starting to diminish into reality.
Rebecca 1989
Only Human
Don't cry for me
My eyes are dry
Don't hurt for me
I am happy
Don't look for me
I am gone
Don't love me
I love others
Don't wait for me
I am gone
But, please pray for me
I am human
Rebecca 1993
To Hope
Standing across the room
She waits
Waiting for him
He glances across the room
Not admitting the attraction
As he turns and leaves
Hopelessness engulfs as she leaves
Lonely Again
Rebecca 1988
Love Don't Leave Me
When I needed you
You were there
Like so many times before
I was a feather
You were the rock I rested upon
I gave up
You kept me going
I was insecure
You offered surety
I was following
You were my leader
Tears streamed down my face
You were the reason they dried
I no longer wanted to love anymore
You taught me to love again
Please love don't leave when I need you the most
I need you now!
Rebecca 1992
How did it happen?
I wonder laying here awake
Night after night
Why that thought enters my mind
Searching
Every doubt beckons
Tomorrow leaves today with the same answer
Nothing
Seeking Comfort
No longer found
Please tell me
When we quit loving each other
2002
Good Bye
I loved you once
I love you always
My heart no longer remains
Life passed us by
Cold indifference engulfed
Dreams and hope betrayed
This Day
My life begins again
2002
Never the Same
Embraced in your love
Falling deeply, Deeper in love
Principles, Beliefs changed
Hopes and dreams renewed
Life, Never the same
Falling in love with you
2002
Again
Here we are
Coming to this place often
Neither of us wanting to leave
Cirumstance interferes
Leaving us apart
Entangled in dreams
Held with hope
Against all odds
Here we are again
2002
Our Peace
Hearts broken
Bound with love
Walls remaining
Persistance to undo
Pain everlasting
Time mending
A chance given
A leap taken
Resting in a "sea of comfort"
Thank you my friend for your perfect quote.
2002
The Day We Danced
Feelings unspoken
A new dawn breaking
Sand against our feet
You gave your hand
Songbirds sang our song
Hearts tangled, We danced
Falling into your lead
Emotions swirled beautifully
In setting sun we danced
Embracing as we glided
The day we danced
My heart forever yours
2002
(No title yet work in progress)
With a kiss
You breathed life into my soul
With an unseen touch
You ingnited my passion
Into your eyes
Gazing contentment
Resting in your arms
Serene Compassion
2002
Love Breath Freely
Boundries non-exisitant
Completely whole
My soul breaths passion
To touch a blessing
Wrapped in your arms sweet absolution
Within our hearts
Love breathes freely
2002
To feel you
Unimaginable joy
Fingertips gliding
Met with warmth
Against you
I feel
2002
Boundries
To love you as I want
Society gawks
To take risks
Opinions rampant
Respect given
Respect compromised
Love so simple
Love so complex
2002
Stained Glass Soul
Shades of emotion
Sparkling against the light
Ordinary amongst the dark
The beholder sees
As he chooses
From the outside in
2002
Dream
Darkness invades
Longing arms reaching
Needing you
Wanting you
Not finding
Not seeing
Awake again
2002
One day
Softly breaking
Sound unheard
Inward yearning
To touch longing
Holding strong to hope
The day our hearts are complete
The tears dry
Our souls side by side no longer crying
2002
Afterall
You,Me, In love
Sands of time flowing
Hearts beating, breaking
Growing stronger
Passion shared
Passion untouched
Longing unfulfilled
Elation yet to be
Disappointment inevitable
Promise of change
Sands of time flowing
Within you Within me
Afterall love remains
2002
Saying Goodbye
A closeing if so chosen
Optimistical opening
To a day yet to be dawned
How the pain tears
Bittersweet irony
Our goodbye will bring hello
2002
Hidden
Friendly interaction
Neither admitting
Hearts could not withstand
The secret we share
Hiding from opinion
We embrace
Wrapping tightly, closely
Our hearts bound
Within a secret
Against the odds
We fell in love
2002