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The Soundtrack Diary Entries
Diary #0: Pre-Soundtrack
Everything starts with an idea, and the ideas that I come up with are completely my own, but are inspired by everyone around me. From the music I listen to, to the people around me, it's all inspired by real life, nothing fake. All real, all personal, all raw, and all me. It's nothing fake in the slightest, nothing that deals with a fantasy world. I've made it all real, all personal and it's all here.

Diary #1: Soundtrack
The idea of a soundtrack makes people think of a movie. Soundtracks are the songs featured in movies, usually, sometimes television shows. But this soundtrack is the soundtrack to my life, and every song is set in reality, all real, all my own, all raw. This is Part of Me, it's My Reality, it's The Way That I Am, it's my Sountrack... RAW!!

Diary #2: Under My Skin
Sometimes people judge me on what's on the outside when the real shit they should be looking at is what is under my skin. So people need to see the real deal, and look under my skin for once

Diary #3: Over A Stupid Guy
Guys can be assholes. They just want to use you so they can get laid. It's like that a lot in the gay world. Sometimes you just wish they weren't there. After the way guys have treated me, I'm not giving up anything for a stupid guy.

Diary #4: Cool Wind Blowing
I'm not dying today and not for a while, no matter what people say, it can't ever change the fact of existence. I'm here, and I feel the cool wind blowing, and I know I'm still alive. The cool wind on my face keeps on blowing gently to remind me that I'm alive.

Diary #5: Original Doll
Some people are just dolls and you dress them up and make them out to be who you wanna be. But this doll isn't going to allow anyone to do that, he's going to make sure everyone knows that he's an original, and he's not going to be typical, he'll be an original doll.

Diary #6: Trying
Sometimes there's really nothing you can do but try. Trying is always worth it, because you don't get anywhere sitting around and letting your life waste away. You just gotta try.

Diary #7: Call of the Wild
Does your heart ever seem to just call out to people by itself? Does it seem to tell you that you need to just get out of the situation you're in and just let yourself be free from the old life? Sometimes I feel like I need to just be wild and just let loose and just answer the call of the wild.

Diary #8: My Heart Beats With Yours
I gave up my heart a few times, and this song is abot the feelings I had during the short time that I had my heart given away to the wrong person, but at the time it felt right.

Diary #9: Now I Can Cry
There was one person who made me cry so much that I just couldn't cry anymore. Situations I would cry in normally I could feel tears trying to break out, but he held them back. It was a long time after that I was finally able to cry and break free of him and his grasp.

Diary #10: Sin
Even though something seems so bad, it feels so good to know you're doing something, regardless of the consequences. Sometimes you just got to let yourself do something you want to do, even though the consequences aren't so good.

Diary #11: 2 B Ur Ex
So, when a guy decides you're not his type, it's a really big downer. And you wish that you could've at least had a chance. But, in the it would've sucked anyways. Well, at least you would've been the best guy he ever turned down, and he'll never know how great you really are, because you're not his ex.

Diary #12: Pack Up And Go
Sometimes, the person that broke your heart sticks around, whether they're actually there, just their shit is there, or the thoughts of them. They're there, and you just want them to pack their shit up and go.

Diary #13: After Soundtrack
After seeing all the things I've seen, it's really inspired a lot of different things. All the words are finally written out and they are out there, whether you like it or not. All personal, all raw, it's a ll written, nothing unwritten. This is the soundtrack of my life.