YOU CAN HAVE YOUR GERMAN COURSES
/ WHOSE ARMS YOU FEEL RIGHT IN

You can have your German courses,
your rosaries,
and your tickets to Minsk.
I'll just stand here on a mountain
staring at the stars without you --
Though without you they won't have half their splendor.

You said you wanted to go find someone
whose arms you felt right in.
What was I to say?
There was nothing I could say.
I let you go.

But somewhere in Eastern Europe,
you'll realize that my arms
were the only arms that you felt right in-
but by then it'll be too late,
our love will already be gone.

Copyright ©2010 Ashi Shadow -4/14/10 on Stasia.

Originally "You said you wanted to find someone"
"I let you go" was also added in for the reader, was not originally there.
"only arms" was originally just "arms"
The style of the line "I let you go" was heavily influenced by Limonov's book "It's Me, Eddie" translated by S.L.Campbell (1983)

Poem written based on the following conversation.
I'm very depressed and might break up with her over it.
Saying she wasn't sure if she felt right in my arms would've been fine, but not the below.
There's no Eastern Europe trip -- that's fictional.
She did go on an Eastern Europe trip, but it was before this happened and unrelated.
 
[12:03:38 AM] A: Honey, why are you here
[12:04:10 AM] S: i woke up to have a snack
[12:04:26 AM] A: I love you. You have to sleep in my arms.
[12:04:47 AM] S: i love you. o miss you
[12:04:56 AM] A: :)
[12:05:06 AM] A: You belong in my arms. You're not allowed to marry anybody else.
[12:05:47 AM] S: i will hardly marry at all
[12:06:02 AM] A: You will marry me.
[12:06:28 AM] A: Do you know the meaning of belong in this context
[12:07:22 AM] S: not really
[12:07:34 AM] A: It means "it's the right place for you"
[12:08:19 AM] A: So you belong in my arms. You're not allowed to marry anybody else.
[12:09:10 AM] S: hm. you have a strong property wish
[12:09:47 AM] A: No, that's not the point. I'm not saying it's right for my arms, I am saying it's right for you. That's why you're not allowed to marry somebody else.
[12:10:59 AM] S: intererting concept. unfortunatly completly unproved
[12:11:43 AM] A: Well, you can try being in somebody else's arms and see how you like it.
[12:12:28 AM] A: What is wrong with you. If you say that being in my arms is not right for you then we should break up. Why are you acting like this. 5 minutes ago you told me that you love me and you miss me.
[12:13:47 AM] S: nothing is wrong with me. i just question things like this. sorry if i hurt you, i stop now
[12:14:40 AM] S: i love you. i sleep worse alone
[12:16:07 AM] A: Then assuming we don't break up, why don't we sleep together more 
[12:17:01 AM] S: we can, i use aech opportunity to do so (like on Su)


Note: The next day we had a fight about it where she said she wouldn't have said that she didn't feel right in my arms, or that she wouldn't have said she'd never feel right in my arms.
But then she started fighting with me about other things.
At the end of the night, when we were in bed and she was in my arms - she said that she does feel right in my arms.
And that that's why she wouldn't have said otherwise.]