SUICIDAL DREAMS
Feeling low
All my life, gone too slow
Stuck in a rut
Working for something, but what?
Sensing a frown,
Now I know I'm down
Waiting for a message to send
I want my life to end
About to take my final flight
Where I'll meet my plight
Still inside my mother's womb
I could sense my tomb
Mortal life over, Immortal life begun
Write the note and pick up the gun
Finger on the trigger, pull back
Ain't gonna cut myself any slack
Goodbye, everyone, all is done
I guess I wasn't the chosen one
FALLING IN LOVE
Falling in love so deep
Your heart I want to keep
You brighten my days
With your sweet, loving ways
I long to tell you this
I melt inside your kiss
Our hearts and minds are one
My searching for Mr. Right is done
If only you could see
How much I enjoy your holding me
You've won my heart
I hope we never part
This feeling is so true
I'm falling in love with you
LOVE
Love is simple, love is kind
It pays no mind
To your dark past
Love will last
Pure and true
Love is me and you
Across the land
Hand in hand
Rythym and rhyme
All throughout time
No impatience or lust
To you my soul I trust
Sent down from above
I've finally found true love
FORBIDDEN LOVE
Why can't they forget my past?
Why can't they see our love will last
I know this rain
Will bring a season of pain
Our hearts and minds are one
What is right will be done
All of their madness
Is bringing us sadness
Our hearts they want to break
It's giving us heartache
Sent down from above,
For you, for me, for us
Forbidden love
DYING
A part of me is dying inside
Because I'm leaving you
I physically won't be here every day
To listen to your problems and fears
A part of me is afraid of the future
Where will we go
Will it still be "us"
or just "you" and "me"
A part of me is dying inside
I'm leaving the one I love so dearly
"Goodbyes" are forever
So what do I say
To you, when I go
except "I love you"?
CHANGES
Sitting in the corner of my pitch-black room
Razor blade in hand
Memories of my world
Crashing down on me again and again
My heart shattered into a thousand pieces
I'm giving up on me
I want everything to end
No one loves me
I guess it's time to go
That was all a few years ago
Now, a wonderful change has entered my life
Someone who loves me and acepts me for who I am
Someone who listens and cares
This newfound love is rare and special
I never want it to end
But my mind keeps wondering
When changes will occur again
FALLING APART
In your eyes
On your face
I can see what happens now
The words you'll speak
The tears I'll cry
Over our once perfect love
Which has now fallen apart
In our past
The tender moments we shared
They seemd so right
What has happened to us
Where have we gone wrong?
I hear you love someone else now
I only wish happiness upon you
When you hold her close, in your arms
I only wish it were me that you loved
And that I was in your arms, safe and content
What happened to us?
When did we fall out of love
How do we get ourselves back where we belong?
Something keeps our two broken hearts together
Lets find it together
And get back where we belong
THANK YOU
You were always here for me when I needed a friend
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
When I needed a hand to hold
And someone to count on
I can still remember that day
When I told you I wanted to
Slit my wrists and die
You were the only one who cared
Enough to help me
You were the one who talked me out of it
If you hadn't been there I'd be dead
After all the times that I jerked you around
You always came back to me
And always forgave me
I don't know why, because I didn't deserve it
Why are you so good to me when
I've hurt you so much in the past
I just wanted to than you
For loving me
You are my best friend and one of
The greatest loves in my life
I want to have you in my life now and forever
Thank you for being a part of my life
And I will always be here for you
FEAR
Drowning in my tears
Crying alone in the dark
Fearing all of my fears
Shuddering at the sound of a dog's bark
Abandonment, lonliness, and failure
Are all things of which I have a great fear
Hopelessness, sadness, depression
Leave me yearning for someone
To hold me near
And hear my cries of fear
HEAVENLY LOVE
Looking at the stars so bright
Wishing for dreams, maybe tonight
Searching for love
Kind, gentle, and peaceful sent from above
Gazing at the clouds and the moon
Praying and hoping that soon
That someone will care for me
Then oh how happy I'll be!!
DEAL WITH IT (OR CHANGE YOUR WORLD)
So you don't like the government?
Deal with it
Or you can change your world
Go out and vote
Nominate another candidate
Or shut your mouth
And quit complaining
Because you're too fake to do anything about it.
So you don't like what's on television?
Deal with it
Or you can change your world
Change the channel
Turn off the TV and write some poetry
Eat, sleep, work, excercise, volunteer
Or think about the world
Be creative
Create your own entertainment
Or shut your mouth
And quit complaining
You're too self-absorbed and lazy to do anything
So you don't like your job?
Deal with it
Or you can change your world
Pick up the newspaper
Apply for another job
Quit
Or shut your mouth
and quit complaining
Your're too immature and malcontent
So you don't like your life?
Deal with it
Or you can change your world
Change your style
Change your hair
Change your friends
Change your underwear
Change your attitude
Or shut your mouth
And quit complaining
You're just starving for attention
Face it, the world doesn't revolve around you
Deal with it
Or you can change your world
THERE (IN A MINUTE)
If you ever need me
I'll be there in a minute
I will be there, totally, completely, and fully
For you, my friend
For throughout my life I have learned
That everyone should have someone
Who honestly cares about them
And realizes that every single life is valuable
And that feelings are very real
And they get hurt, confused, and depressed
But people in this world don't always care
About your needs and wants and fears
Or about the wonderful person inside of you
Because they only want to see the exterior
No matter what is there
So always remember
Whenever you need someone
Whenever you want someone
Wo really and truly and fully
Cares about you for the person inside
I'll be there in a minute
For you, my friend
LOOKIHNG INTO THE MIRROR (SEEING MYSELF)
Looking into the mirror
I see a young woman
With short, curly brown hair, green eyes
And freckles
An ordinary, everyday type of person
But when I take a closer look at myself
Into the depths of my soul
I see a frightened little girl
Insecure about herself
Emotionally scarred
Traumatized for life
Every morning I apply makeup to my face
To cover up the little imperfections
To improve my appearance
I wear makeup on the inside too
To hide the pain I've felt all my life
I put on a happy front
Or an I-don't-care attitude
And go on with daily life
Looking into the mirror
Looking at myself
Wishing and hoping that I am beautiful
Inside and out
RAIN AND TEARS
Rain, rain, falling down
Like my tears, pouring out
Puddles are forming, down around
My heart, where my feelings are floating about
My thoughts are soaring up among the clouds
My heart is heavy, falling to the ground
All these emotions are stirring up cyclones
Throughout my body
I cannot withold my pain any longer
Where can I go and who can I tell?
I have only myself
To deal with the misery inside
My tears and the rain, both falling down
But maybe soon,
The sun will come out and a rainbow will appear
Turning my tears into a smile
VOICES IN MY HEAD
Dark clods on a cold starry night
Frigid pools of water, derowning away all frights
The thoughs going on in my throbbing brain
Always frowning
Upon the tragic events of my past
The endless mstakes that will last
Forever planted in my twisted head
God, I wish I were fucking dead
Deader than the rotting, maggot-infested corpses in the ground
A few minutes finally pass, I look around
The voices in my head are no more
Yet I hear a thumping on my door
I open it up and no one is there
The voices are around me now, everywhere
Lauging at me inside my head
I pick up the gun and shoot me dead
The voices in my head are nothing but silent
The end of a life, so sudden, so violent
MY SWEET ANGEL
My sweet angel, you've made my life bright
My sweet angel, I love to see you smile
My sweet angel, you are my light
My sweet angel, I want to hold you tight
My sweet angel, tell me your fears
My sweet angel, you are safe with me near
My sweet angel, don't you cry
My sweet angel, we will never say goodbye
My sweet angel, hold my hand
My sweet angel, I will help you stand
My sweet angel, with wings so new
My sweet angel, I love you
A POEM FOR MY EVERLASTING LOVE
Every time I look into your eyes each day
Pieces of my painful past fade away
And every time you hold me tight
In your arms, late at night
The safeness and security you bring me
Calms my fright
The love that you show me
In every hug and every kiss
Is just one more thing about you
That I never want to miss
The love in your eyes, your adorable smile
Makes all of our hardships worth the while
The intoxicating aroma
Of your freshly sprayed cologne
Keeps me yearning for all of the tender moments
When I have you alone
When I'm not with you,
The lonlieness cuts like a knife
Because you are the one
With whom I want to spend the rest of my life!
WOULD YOU KNOW ME NOW?
Would you know me now
If you would happen to see my face?
Would you still treat me as your friend?
Or hold me in your embrace?
Would you answer me now?
If I would call your name?
Would you look me in the eye
And tell me things are still the same?
Would you need me now
The way you did before?
Could you love me now
When I've never needed you more?
Do you miss me now?
Am I still your friend?
Please don't leave me now
Stay with me until the end
LAST NIGHT
I closed my eyes last night
And all I saw was you
I felt your embrace
I smelled your sweet scent
I heard your voice
And your kisses carressed my face
I felt your pain in my heart
Your unspoken words rang in my ears
Your fears ran through my blood
Your worries echoed my brain
I lay there falling asleep
A smile formed on my lips
And curled up under my blankets
I dreamed fo what tomorrow would bring
