I Forgive You
( Or Ode To A Cyberman )
I forgive you for all the lies,
Did it give you pleasure?
I forgive you the broken promises,
Why you wanted me to fall for you,
I gave you my heart and fell for every lie,
You said you were hoping to hear from me,
You gave me no closure,
Yes, I forgive you for all this,
By Linda ..May 2001
The Meaning of Forgiveness
Footnote....
Then we start thinking of the things that didn`t add up, how
I got hurt, can you tell ? I'm one of many victims out here.
I forgive you for all the pain.
I forgive you the heartache you gave me,
I don't know what you felt you had to gain.
Did it boost your pride?
You stole my heart,
And left me feeling like I died.
I forgive you the disillusionment of a child.
I forgive you for encouraging me,
To please let my passionate feelings run wild.
I really do not know.
Did you need to break another heart,
For your ego to grow?
You played me and hurt me so bad,
You led me to believe you really love and want me,
It was all lies and you`re finished with the fun you had.
That was a lie too.
I have sent many emails in 4 months,
There is no excuse for no words from you.
You did a disappearing act.
Your friend had excuses for you,
That had no basis in fact.
You see I really must.
I must try to forgive you,
Or I never again will be able to trust.
Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting, nor does it mean
whitewashing what has happened. Forgiveness means
letting go, moving on, and favoring the positive.
I think the whole game is stupid. They obviously don`t realize,
or just don`t care, that they may be hurting others. There
are a lot of us out there who are decent, caring people
that actually believe some or all of their crap. We don`t
know the rules of this pointless, lying game. They are so smooth
(obviously from lots of practise), that we don`t realize
we are being fed a lot of bull, until they disappear, and we
are left heart broken.
it seemed too good to be true, how the other person would go
on the defense at some things said. How it was always
"our" fault when there was an argument, how we were accused
of always being the liar. They disappear and move on to the
next victim when they get bored. They leave a scar behind.
They leave their victims with a fear of getting involved
with another on line again, a fear of being used as a means
to their enjoyment of the games they play again. I'm sure there
are women out there who do the same to men.
I'm afraid to really reach out again, afraid when
someone reaches out to me. The thoughts of "is he lying
to me, is this picture really him, will I get hurt again,
is he really bull shitting me?" These thoughts are always
there now. Watch out women.
Linda