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A scorching pain. More than a physical pain a living thing could have. Imagine that pain carried by a person full of dreams. He cannot dreamed at all. All is gone and dead. Many times of his life he wish he could die, still life holds him. For what to suffer in a lifeless world? What is the meaning of his life? And how can he suffer the pain when he feels lifeless?
He makes all to appear right. For people doesn't want to hear his pain no more. he keeps it inside, where all is dead in an abyss full of nothingness. He kept on suffering until he doesn't know the reason why he did. No one can cure his pain except acceptance of reality. But for him even acceptance is unbearable, unimaginable. He tried to keep on standing up and rise from his fall. All he can get was the deeper hole of his self. Not every part of us is for show. It is who we are inside and out that we can be. He doesn't know his self. To know it is intoxicating and maks him lament more. All he can do is runaway and he keeps on running until he can't stop. Even if he is tired, he keeps on going. Because for him it is the only way he could escape, even for a moment. Dreaming of fantasy is an escape and he keeps on wanting it more, until he can't escape fantasy and continues to take it. Some feelings remained even it was a lie. And he keeps on suffering more pain, more than ever before. Reality is its awake. Still he wants to suffer pain than cure it. It makes him feel what he wanted, even if it gives him pain. He cannot think without it. He is no problem-solver. He creates more problems. He can harm all but not his fantasies. This is where he belongs. This is his world.