She was special to me really special. "Did you really like seeing all my stupid place and hearing all my coming of age stories?" I asked her as we sat at thin the car over looking the lake.
This was such a wonderful spot and where I feel at most peace with the world. She smiled at me and I just wanted to bottle this moment so it would never end. "Of course I did. Are you kidding this was a big reason I was so excited about coming to Tulsa with you. I felt I would really get to know you.” I smiled and stroked her cheek.
"Come on. I got something to show you." I said gesturing for us to get out of the car.
"More? You have more to show me?'" she asked surprised.
I had shown her so much today. I grabbed the bag in the back of the car and put it over my shoulder. "What is that?" she asked.
"Nothing don't worry about it." I took her hand and hand and lead her down to the waters edge.
The trees created shade that was perfect for what I had planned. She walked over to the waterside and was gazing into it. I put my bag down and pulled out the blanket I packed. I laid it down by the tree and pulled out the basket of things I had packed.
I laid the strawberries out and the dipping chocolate . I figured that was romantic enough to show her how much I cared. I walked over and wrapped my arms around her from behind. She smelled like peaches. I could smell her all day long. "Hey," she said touching my hands as they embraced her.
"Come here I have something for you," I whispered in her ear knowing this was private moment between us.
There wasn't a soul around. We walked towards the blanket and she saw it when it came into view. "Oh my god. What is this?" she asked me.
"This is something very special for you. Sit down," I instructed her.
She took a seat on the blanket and stared at me. "You're too much.”
She was blushing. "Nothing is to much for my woman."
She tossed her head back and laughed and I really felt myself opening up. Like I was giving her a piece of me silently. I always run away from this, this time I couldn't if I tried.
The way the rays ere shining down on her made her look almost unearthly. Like she was some kind of messenger of god. I leaned forward and grabbed her chin. I brought her lips to mine and kissed her softly.
She pulled away only inches and smiled at me. I licked my lips savoring the flavor of strawberries on her lips. This time she found my lips and we began kissing. This kiss was new to me.
Rachel and I don't kiss unless there is urgency. There is always that burning sexual desire and you can feel it within our kisses. This time it was more of a feeling engulfing us.
We were kissing to be this close to each other. The intensity level was the same but there was something knew with these feelings. I don't remember how it happened but Rachel was laying down underneath me.
Her hands were wrapped tightly around my neck as my lips finally broke from our lip lock. I kissed her neck so sightly as if she were a baby. Her hands began to travel up and down my back.
It didn't take long for her finger tips to graze across my bare flesh. I went back to kissing her lovingly and let her pull my shirt up. I got the hint quickly and removed my shirt as quickly as I could. I leaned down and stared at her top.
She wore a buttoned down stripped blouse with a pair of jeans. Each button I unbuttoned as if she were going to break if I went to fast. When the last button was undone I oped her shirt to reveal her laced bra and sighed to myself.
Her gash was still there and very noticeable and that only made me want to make her feel pleasure more. I wanted to make her forget what had happened. She lifted her shoulder blades up so I could slide the fabric off of her completely.
I kissed her bar chest and caressed her breasts gently. She moaned slightly put her hand on my shoulder. The sensation of her hand on my bare skin made me feel on fire. I closed my eyes and felt her hand travel down my chest to my pants.
She had them undone and was pushing them down before I could even think about what I was doing. I wanted to be inside of her, but this time it was different. Every other time the longing to be inside of her was because of the sexual drive. This time it was because I wanted to be a close as humanly possible with her.
I wanted to connect with her on a different level then we ever had. I didn’t want to have sex with her, I think I was ready to make love to her. The word love is the scariest word in the entire world. I run from it like it was the plague, but at this moment as I looked into her eyes and removed her jeans and panties, I wanted nothing more then to be completely over taken and effected by it.
“Isaac, please f...” I placed my mouth to hers and when I pulled away I looked deep in her eyes.
I wanted to touch her soul. “No, not this time. This time we...” I couldn’t say it.
As much as I wanted to tell her that were going to make love, I couldn’t get those words out of my lips. I just stared at her and she seemed lost for words. I knew she understood when she let me kiss her again as I guided myself inside her.
“Oh my...” she said as the feelings were the most intense as they have ever been.
I almost lost myself at that moment. It wasn’t rough. It was gentle and loving. I stroked her hair as I rocked in and out of her in rhythm with the beating of my heart. I couldn’t stop myself from staring her eyes which only made the emotions and the feelings more intense.
I couldn’t control myself anymore, “Rachel, oh god my Rachel...” I said gripping her tightly as our bodies were becoming one in a beautiful passionate way.
“Isaac!” she yelled throwing her head back in ecstacy.
When she looked up I made sure to catch her eye again and I lost all control of my actions and the words just came flying out of my lips, “Rey, I love you,” I whispered finally giving her all of me.
“Rey...” Isaac was saying something I couldn’t understand.
“What?” I asked him.
He didn’t say anything for a moment, “I was just saying... how amazing... this is.” He told me between gasps.
I smiled and nodded. The feeling of being so connected with him is something I have longed for but never realized it. When I met Isaac it was all about sex. Now, I need him. I yearn for him in another way.
Its almost as if I’m falling for him. It dawned on me that moment as I came crashing to earth. I was making love to the first man that has made me feel in years. I had been fighting for so long to stop myself from feeling this, to push everything that came this close away but he just has a hold onto me.
He has this way of breaking all the complication down and seeing me bare and for everything I keep hidden underneath.
I felt myself beginning to feel that feeling of ecstasy. I wasn’t going to be able to take this. It was going to be too much. “Oh my god baby,” he moaned and I knew he felt my muscle contracting.
“Look in my eyes. I want you to look in my eyes when we...”
He didn’t finish his thoughts. I felt his hands grip me as he was pushing a little harder. I knew he was close and when he stared deep in my eyes one last time I couldn’t control it anymore. “Oh my god!” I yelled as my body released.
I didn’t break eye contact with him as I saw his face fill with the joy of sex. “Rey, Rey, Rey,” he moaned as we both reached our peaks and came back down together.
Finally when we both were completely down from our natural high he collapsed on top of me. I closed my eyes and took in the feelings I was experiencing.
Isaac and I had just made love for the first time. There was nothing dirty or raw about it. It was sweet and beautiful. It was how I wanted to feel when I finally feel for someone.
After a long time of silence and the feeling of his hands just stroking me, he lifted up and looked at me. “Your gorgeous.”
He looked drunk or like he was on something. I smiled, it being the only thing I had any strength to do. “Really Rachel you are the most amazing person. You make of want to be a better man,” he said.
If it wasn’t for the moment or the situation we were in, I would have laughed in his face for saying something that cheesy but right now in the height of everything it was beautiful and poetic and most of all honest.
I stroked his soft skin. “You make me feel amazing. I don’t even know how to describe what I feel for you,” I confided.
“You don’t have to. I feel it too.”
He finally rolled off of me and grabbed half the blanket. “Come closer baby,” he told me.
I moved close to him laying my head on his chest listening to his heart beating beneath me. He wrapped the other half of the blanket around us keeping up both warm and close together. “I never want to leave here,” I mumbled.
“I never want to leave you,” he said pulling me tighter.
I just closed my eyes and pushed myself into him. This felt like a dream to me and I never wanted to wake.