Chapter 2

Chapter 2

TAYLOR
The air was really frigid today, way to frigid for the middle of November. This was January, February weather. I had only been walking out here for ten minutes and my face was already frozen and I knew my cheeks were a deep crimson, but it was nice to be outside. It help clear my thoughts. Its a happy time of year. Thanksgiving is in a couple of weeks and Christmas is not to far off but I just feel so strange, like my world is a little lopsided right now.

I entered the park and soon found a bench that wasn't occupied and sat down. I pulled my coat tight around me and closed my scarf a little more trying to maintain any warmth I could. There was so much shit happening right now in every relationship of my life. This whole Zac thing really bothered me.

I don't know what the hell is going on with him, but I must have done something to make him hate as much as he seems to. When we're rehearsing or just hang out there is so much tension, but if it is just Zac and I the tension could be cut with a knife. Lately I have been so grateful that Joley has been staying with us, she makes the atmosphere a little lighter. I just wish I knew what I did or at least what I could do to try to make things better just a little better.

The worst part is I really don't have anyone to talk to about this. Isaac has made it clear on many occasions that he is not going to get involved. He wants to remain neutral, and I can't say I really blame him. As good of a friend as Joley is, I know she would always side with Zac and she should as she is his girlfriend. There was only one person that would really try to understand where I'm coming from and try to see my side of the story, but I really don't know if I could call her. It's been a few days since the last time I talk to her and she hasn't seemed to happy with me. I took a deep breath and new I should just do it. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed the number that I new better then anyone elses.

"Hello?" her voice rang over the line.

"Hey Genna.... its me, Taylor." I told her. She probably knew that already, but I didn't know what else to say.

"Oh..." she trailed off, "Hi." it was weird.

There was that awkward silence between the two of us. We used to have silence during our converstaions but it was never uncomfortable, it was as good as talking. Now, every moments is an uncomfortable moment. "How's Jason?" I asked her.

"Sleeping. This is around the time he takes a nap. You would know that if you actually had spent time with your son." she had to start this again.

I did not need the guilt trip on me right now. I already had enough shit on my mind. "Please don't start Genna...." I trailed off as my voice cracked a little.

I put my head down touching my forehead. This was a bad idea. I shouldn’t have a called her. "All I'm saying Taylor is that you might know these little things about him, if you would just spend a little time with your child."

"It's kind of hard to spend time with him, when he's a thousand miles away. You just picked up and left me not giving me a chance to spend time with him."

"Oh you had your chance Taylor. He was there everyday, we were there god damb day, but it was never about us. It was always about you and the band. Your career was your number one priority not us." she was rasing her voice.

I just breathed in a little deeper. "I love my son!" was the only thing I could say, it was something I felt I had to say even if it was for no one but myself.

She sighed and laughed a little, but I knew it wasn't out of amusement. "I know you love him Taylor," her voice had gotten softer.

"I do Genna! He's.. I would... god he's a part of me... I would do anything..." I trailed off.

I couldn't tell her, I couldn't explain how much I loved that little boy. "All he needs Taylor, is you. He needs his father to be there."

"I want to see him Genna. Maybe you guys can come stay for awhile?" I wanted to give us another shot, I missed her so much.

"Taylor we have been down this road before, I don't...."

"Please? I want to see Jason... I want to see you. I will send you guys plane tickets or whatever, just please?" I cut her off.

There was silence for a little while. "Maybe Taylor, I'll have to think about it." she sounded as unsure as her words.

"That's all I'm asking... just for you to think about it."

"Ok...So what was it that you called me for?" she asked me.

I had forgotten for a moment why I had called. I thought about talking to her about for a second and realized it probably wasn't the best thing to be doing. We have our own problems we need to deal with, "Cause he's gonna be waking up soon, so I'm gonna need to go."

"I just called to see how Jason," I stopped and weighed whether I should say it or not, "and you were doing."

"Oh, ok," she didn't sound convinced.

"I'll let you go then... tell him that I love him."

"I always do Taylor," a smiled slightly at that.

"I'll talk to you soon then.... I uh, I love you Genna," she took a sharp in take of breath.

"I really have to go Taylor," she sounded like she was about to cry, "Bye." she hung up not waiting for me say good-bye back.

I closed the phone and sat on the bench for awhile. I finally stood up and decided to go to a coffee shop to sit and try to clear my mind again. That conversation didn't help any. It actually made it worse and the last place I wanted to go was home.


RACHEL
I'm used to this train ride now. I should be, I have been taking it for a decent amount of time. I was looking out the window staring into the newly star light sky. This was still so crazy for me. Sometimes I'm waiting for someone to come pinch me or wake me up from this dream.

I have loved Isaac since... well since Middle of Nowhere. I went to all those concerts and fantasized about him for years. He was my teen idol and here I am traveling to New York City to stay the week-end with him. The first time Isaac and I had sex was as crazy as I could have imagined it. Not the sex itself, but it was afterwards, when we just laid together. I began thinking and about how crazy it was that I just slept with a Hanson not just only a Hanson but Isaac the one that I was in love with. "I hate everything about you.... Why do I Loath you?" began to ring loudly from my purse.

Ughhh it was LeAnn, the one person I was not in the mood for. I would have rather talked to the Mexican guys from KFC who can't speak English that like to check out my ass. I'll be nice. "Hey Leann," I said into the phone trying to sound as excited as I possibly could.

"Hey Rey. What's up?" she said as annoying as ever.

I repressed the urge to growl at her. I fucking hated when she used that god damn nickname. Only Isaac called me that and I wanted it to stay that way. "Leann... I've told you a million times not to call me that." she laughed on the other end.

"Oh Rachel lighten up. I'm just playing with you!"

"Whatever, what do you want?" she had really pissed me off and she does it all the god damn time.

"I was wondering if you wanted to go down to Belmar with me tonight, you know, cruise the bar seen, maybe pick up some guys... get drunk!" I knew those last two words were what it was all about.

I really think she has a drinking problem and even if I wasn't coming into the city this week-end, I probably wouldn't be going. I have a problem helping her keep up with her habit. Besides, It's the middle of November and this stupid girl wants to go down to the Jersey shore. What the hell is she smoking? Doesn't she realize that most of the people that would actually be interesting in those place are gone.

"I can't Leann sorry," I tried to sound as disappointed as I possibly could, but really I was pretty happy that I could avoid her this week-end.

"What do you mean can't?" she said with her snippy I-need-to-know-everything Attitude.

Now, she was really pissing me off getting all up in my business like that. "I'm in the city ok? I was able to get the whole week-end off with no appointments so I'm gonna stay with Isaac. Besides, Leann, don't you think you drink a little to much anyway? I mean every night you either go out and drink or you stay in and drink by yourself." As much as she could make me want to chop into her skull with an ax... she was still my friend and I wanted to make sure that if she did have a problem that I could do whatever I could to help.

"I don't know why everyone keeps saying that to me. I don't have a problem. One drink never hurts anyone." she was sounding very defensive like she had something to prove.

"One drink leads to two, and two to three Leann. All I'm trying to say is maybe you should just try not to drink all the time. It was just a suggestion."

"So that's awesome that your staying with Isaac the whole week-end. You must be excited! Your gonna fuck like every fifteen minutes, you crazy horny jack rabbits!" There she goes, changing the subject when someone tries to offer advise.

Whatever I tried. "Shut-up!" I had to laugh a little, "Isaac and I do not have sex that often and we will not be doing it every fifteen minutes. Your just a jealous bitch," I joked.

"Hell yeah I'm jealous! Your getting donked by that eight incher whenever you want it. I have to go out and pick up losers, hoping that when I get their pants off that it ain't curving let alone a decent size." I almost choked.

"Oh my god, you did not just say that!" I started laughing.

"So, maybe I'll take the train in tomorrow and we can hang out?" it was more of a question then a statement.

Now I really wanted to scream at her. "Ummm, no!" I pretty much screamed that not on purpose, but she just had a way of pissing me the fuck off, "this is a me and Isaac week-end. I can hang out with you any day of the week. Sorry, but no."

"Oh ok... well maybe I'll text you tomorrow and if you guys aren't busy we can go to AC," what the hell didn't she understand about I'm not hanging out with you.

I swear my dogs IQ is higher then hers. "Leann, I told you..," I sighed it wasn't worth it and we had just stopped in Penn Station, "fine whatever...maybe, but listen I have to go I'm in the city and Isaac is waiting for me."

"Ok cool, we can to like the Brogada or something it will be cool. I'll call you guys tomorrow and we can figure out what's going on.” It wasn't even worth the aggravations.

"Whatever, I'll talk you later."

"Don't have the monster dick in you for to long, you wont be able to walk in AC, bye" I hung up with out another word. I swear to GOD!

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I came up the stairs slowly pulling my little overnight bag along with me. I loved the hustle and bustle of the city, but this time of day always made me a little nervous it was to much. I would never admit it to Isaac, but I do feel a lot safer when he meets me here. He would let that flow to his ego to much.

I got onto the escalator to take me to the main floor in Penn Station. As I came up, the floor came into view and standing directly in front of the top was Isaac. It was almost as if he knew exactly when to be here and where I would be. He had his black jacket on with his jeans and black shoes. He looked so amazing and I still couldn't believe he was mine.

"Ah miss can I help you with those bags?" he joked with me.

"Of course, but only until my boyfriend arrives. I don't think he would appreciate a handsome man like you carrying my bags." I teased back.

"Hey baby," he leaned in and kissed me gently.

Pulling away only a few inches and smiling at me before kissing me again, "you ready?" "Of course," I told him as he took my bag from me and wrapped his arm around my waist, leading the way to our week-end destination.




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