Chapter 10



Isaac
I had gotten up early this morning and after I laid in bed for almost forty five minutes I figured I should get up. Slowly and quietly I walked around the bed to grab my robe. I couldn’t help myself and stopped to stare at Rachel. She was so beautiful and I wish she would just stay one more day. Damn it I wish show would never leave.

I shook myself from staring. I didn’t want her to wake up and find me drooling over her, it might freak her out. I walked into the kitchen and decided to make coffee for us, so it was ready whenever she woke up from her beauty sleep. Not that she need beauty sleep, she was beautiful no matter what.

Ughhh, I didn’t want to think about her right now. It’s bad enough that she will be on my mind ninty nine percent of the time till the next time we are together. Maybe I could convince her to stay, and then I wont think about her and yearn for her when she leaves me. These thoughts ran threw my head as I made my coffee and then I smiled to myself when something dawned on me. I was gonna make her breakfast, just to let her know how I feel about her.

I grabbed the eggs and the bacon from the refrigerator. I grabbed the box of pancake mix from the cabinet. The eggs were a little runny, the bacon was a little burned and the pancakes were a little awkward shaped, but I did the best I could and I hoped she would appreciate this.

I made her coffee just the way she liked it with a little milk and two sugars. Then I put everything on the tray that I kept under the sink even a glass of apple juice, which she loved to drink with breakfast and carried it into the bedroom.

She was still out like a light and I really didn’t want to wake her up, but I wanted to spend as much time with her as possible before she left later this afternoon. I placed the tray down on the floor for a second and I moved closer to the bed, “Rey,” I whispered.

“Mmm,” she moaned as she stirred a little.

“Rey, honey. Wake up I’ve got something for you,” I shoke her gently.

“Rmm Isaac, I’m not in the mood today for a morning sex, sorry.”

“No, it’s not that. Just open your eyes, babe,”

She opened her eyes slightly and look at me for a moment, “Umm, ok I’m looking at you and I don’t see anything special,” she mumbled.

“Oh, yeah,” I bent down and picked up the tray slowly, “I made you breakfast, Rachel.” For a split second I felt like I was eight years old and I just made all of this for my mother on Mother’s Day.

She looked at me with a warm smile on her face and she sat up slowly, “Oh my god, Isaac. How sweet of you, wha... why did you do this?” she had a shocked cute look on her face and I could have just ate her up.

“Just because. I mean it’s not like it’s the greatest breakfast in the world. I’m not the good of cook, but I figure I would try... for you.” I said feeling my face growing hot and I couldn’t shake the feeling of how much I felt like a little boy.

“No, Isaac, it’s wonderful,” the smile was spread wide across her face, “Come sit and eat with me,” she patted the spot next to her.

“No, no, I made that for you. You enjoy it.”

“I will enjoy it, if you come sit next to me, be close to me, before I leave,” she had a flicker in her eye and for a second I thought she might actually be considering staying.

I took a seat next to her on the bed and she began to eat my attempt at breakfast. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and pulled her slightly to me and she rested her head on my shoulder. I got that feeling in my stomach, the one that I haven’t had for the longest time. The one that I don’t let myself get. I usually run long before this can occur, but something about Rachel makes me stay even now.

“I don’t want you to leave,” I whispered running my fingers threw her wavy hair.

She breathed in slowly and deeply, “Don’t ruin this moment for me.”

“I’m not!” I protested quickly, “I’m just telling you. I just want you to know how much I’m gonna miss you.”

She turned her head to me and our face so we so close our noses touched, “I’ll call you every night. I always do.”

I just closed my eyes and tightened my grip on her locks. I breathed in her natural, sweet scent. And for the first in a long time I gave myself completely to someone.

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“Hey, Taylor,” I hadn’t heard anything from him, actually I don’t think anyone has heard from him since the other night.

“Hey, Ike. What’s up?” he asked me sounding as normal as ever.

“I’m in Penn Station with Rachel. She’s leaving today,” Rachel squeezed my hand and I knew she heard the slight change in my voice as I had spoke those lines.

“Oh sorry dude. I didn’t mean to interupt. I just called to see if maybe you wanted to get dinner or something?” he sounded uneasy suddenly, like almost scared that I was gonna be like hell no.

“Yeah, that would be cool. I haven’t eaten,” at least it would be a way to keep her off my mind for a few hours and I could finally found out what happen on Saturday night.

“Cool, umm can we go to Francesca’s? I’m in the mood for Italian.”

“That’s fine with me. It’s right by me so I have no problem with that. Umm her train leaves around six so I will meet you there about six thirty, that okay?”

“Yeah no problem see you later.”

I hung up with Taylor and Rachel and I sat down in the waiting not saying much just hold each others hands as if our life depended on it. Finally, the moment that I always dread came. Her train was loading, “That’s me Ike,” she said standing up.

I got up as slow as I could and grabbed her tightly pulling her to me. I inhaled deeply bringing in her scent one last time. She laid her head on my chest for a just a split second before pulling away and drawing me in for a kiss. I wanted to actually say, for the first time ever with Rachel I wanted to say those three words that I run away from.

“I have to go,” she whispered as I kissed her forehead.

“I know. I miss you already, baby,” I told her back.

She pulled away completely and grabbed all her bags. I missed her smell, her touch, her body so close to mine, “I’ll miss you, “ her hand finally left mine and I felt so empty.

“Call me as soon as you get home!” I demanded.

She turned and smiled, “I will, you know I will,” and that was it she was gone.

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“So how upset are you that she left?” Taylor asked me as he spread butter on his bread.

I looked at him like he was a moron, clutching my glass of wine, “Umm, very upset. It’s nice when she is here. It’s hard with her being so far away.

“I know, it is so hard,” he said as he examined the piece of bread like he was gonna perform surgery on it or something.

I nodded, I forget sometimes about Taylor and Genna being apart. I don’t know why I do, but I do, “Are you excited Tay?”

“Of course! It’s been so long since I saw her and I really, really miss Jason. It’s gonna be nice to have her around again. Really nice,” he had that look in his eye.

The same look he had when he first fell in love with Genna, “I’m really happy for you Taylor.” I didn’t think I had actually told him that so I know now was the right time.

His face grew into the biggest smile I had seen in a long time, “Really Ike?” he asked.

“Yeah of course. You deserve to be happy and I know you’re a good father. It’s been really hard on you not being able to see Jason and you and Genna kind of being on hiatus,” It’s rare when Taylor and I have these touching types of conversation, but he needs a friend and support right now.

“Thanks Isaac. That really means so much to me,” and he took another sip of wine, “I’m scared you know, like what if I really fuck this up again. She is not gonna give me anymore chances and I want to be a family and I want Jason to know me,” I felt bad for him.

He really was alone on this one. He has always come to me with problems and most of the time I have been threw the exact same thing, but I don’t have a child. I have never even had to deal with a girl getting pregnant so I have a hard time with what to say to him. Most if the time I just wing it, “Taylor, Jason knows who you are, you’re a very good father. Just because you’re having a problem with his mother doesn’t mean that it’s gonna affect you and Jason,” he smiled at me warmingly.

“That makes me feel really good, Ike. I really appreciate it,” he was staring at me with those longing in his eyes and if he wasn’t my brother, I would probably be a little more then creeped.

“So Taylor, where have you been these past two days?” his face feel a little.

“Well, ummm I spent the night at a hotel last night. I haven’t been home since Saturday night. I figured there was probably war there between Zac and Joley and well...” he paused for a moment and he wasn’t making eye contact with me, “I’m embarrassed Ike. Everything about that night, I was such an asshole and I acted like a child.”

“Well, honestly Tay, I’m not gonna tell you didn’t. You really did act like a little kid. Both of you being drunk and then almost killing each other. I’m not gonna get my nose in there and tell you guys that you need to be best friends, but you definitely need to stop this. You have Genna coming home with you’re baby. So I say you go home tonight and talk to Zac. Don’t bring them into that hostel environment.”

“And what do I do if Zac doesn’t care?” Taylor asked nervously.

“Well, Zac will care because he cares about Genna and Jason, but if he doesn’t then there is always a place for you with me!” I kind of regretted it before he said it, but it was the thing to say at that time.

“Wow, Isaac. That’s so awesome of you. You really like the greatest. I’ll keep that in mind if I ever need it,” his eyes were like Christmas trees and I knew I really regreted that. Oh where was Rachel when I needed her.

Taylor

I couldn’t sit still in these damn airport chairs. They were so uncomfortable. A let out the loudest sigh I probably have ever let out in my entire life and put my head down. It wasn’t the chairs that weren’t letting me sit still, it was that nervous feeling in my stomach. I ran my fingers threw my hair and closed my eyes. She was so close and still not here.

I looked at my watch and looked at the time three minutes. Her plane should be here in three minutes. Those three minutes were gonna feel like three years to me. I closed my eyes and leaned back talking to myself inward. I keep telling myself not fuck this shit up. I needed to make sure that this time she didn’t leave, that we were a family, always.

I made sure all the other outside forces in our environment weren’t gonna put anymore stress on us. I even sucked up my pride and talked to Zac. I sat him and Jolie down and apologized for what happened that night. And Zac made a promise to me that he wouldn’t make Genna and Jason feel the tension. That he would suck it up and deal with it for now. Maybe he doesn’t hate me as much as I had thought, or maybe he is just showing how much her cares for Jolie, who ripped him a new one, Genna and Jason. Who knows, but I sure as hell wasn’t gonna sit around and worry myself about him. I have too many other problems to worry about.

What if my child didn’t even know who I was? I couldn’t shake that fear and I think it’s because a part of me knows all to well that it could very well be true. I had to shake my head to stop thinking about that. I sighed loudly again and I felt the eyes of the people sitting in the section stare at me . I smiled half-heartedly in there direction but I didn’t make eye contact. I looked at the board to break myself away and saw that they had arrived. The plane had landed and they were on their way off.

I actually felt myself start shaking slightly and for a split second I thought I might vomit right here. Then, people started to file off and I stood up, ready to take her in my arms. I never really realized just how much I loved them and needed them. How much I had missed them. I watched person after person file of the plane and then suddenly she came into view.

She actually stopped my heart from beating. She was more beautiful then the first day I met her. She was stunning and I was the stupidest person on the planet to have let her go. She walked towards me, smiling happily holding our son in her arms. I felt tears actually sting my eyes and it took every strength in my body to not break down right there. The one thing that I couldn’t stop myself from doing was running to her.

I dashed to her and she walked as quickly as she could to me and we stopped when we were finally in front of each other. “You’re here,” I whispered brushing my hand over her cheek.

“I’m here,” she said searching my eyes.

“Oh god Genna,” I said, the tears finally spilling over.

I grabbed her and pulled her into me as tight as I could. She gripped me tightly with her one free arm and I quickly adjusted my arm so it was wrapped completely around her and Jason. We both cried as I buried my face in her neck. She sobbed into my ear and I stroked her jet black hair with my other hand.

I pulled away and wiped my eyes. I took her face in my hands, “I love you so much Genna,” I said trying to keep myself from crying again.

“I love you, Taylor.”

“Dada,” Jason said suddenly, taking his tiny hand grabbing my hair.

I turned as quickly as possible. He remembered me. Oh my god, he did. I couldn’t hold the tears back again. I felt feeling that I have never felt in my entire life. Feelings that only the love of a child can give you. “Jason, oh my baby,” I said to him, touching his beautiful face.

“Taylor you can take him,” Genna said still crying.

“Oh my boy,” I said taking him from her arms.

“Look Jason, sweetheart, it’s Daddy,” she said putting her hand on her mouth as she broke down completely.

I kissed his check and I hugged him to me, “I missed you so much Jason. You have no idea how much I missed you. Oh Daddy loves you so much!” I let myself keep crying as I felt his little body mold to mine and for the first time in a few months I got to hold my child.

He laid his little head on my shoulder and I began rocking him as Genna came over to me and I put my other arm around her. I leaned down and kissed her on her forehead. “I don’t ever want this to change Genna. I want us to be a family and you to always be with me,” I told her.

“I want the same thing. We just have to work at it Taylor. I don’t want to talk about this right now though, I want to enjoy the feeling of us being together.” she said as I leaned down and wiped her tears.

I pulled her close to me so we were facing each other and Jason in between, “We are gonna be able to enjoy that feeling everyday from this moment on,” and then I kissed her and for the first time since before she left me, she kissed me back.



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