Song
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Lips of an Angel
Here is the words to a song that everytime I hear it, it reminds me of us. (i listen to it all the time too lol)

Lips Of An Angel By: Hinder

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

I miss you
Mood:  irritated
AOL is acting stupid and won't let me email you the link to this page. I'm about to be pissed off. As much as we email each other and then it starts sending the messages back to me. What's up with that? I will keep trying. I miss you and can't wait to talk to you again. I love you.

Been Away from here WAY too Long
Mood:  happy
I am so happy today, b/c I got to talk to you on the phone for longer than we have talked
in a very long time. You probably think that I have abanadoned you here but I just haven't
had much of a chance to get on here and type. Some certain person likes to watch over my
shoulder.

Earlier this week we talked early in the morning while you were on your way to work and
before we hung up, I finally did it, I finally told you that I loved you! I have been
wanting to tell you that for so long. I say it on here and on AIM but it's different to
actually open my mouth and say. And then to hear you say it back OMG that's the best
feeling in the world. Like I told you earlier today, I really do think that I fell in
love with you before I fell in love with "him". Yes he was here first be we had not been
dating that long when I started talking to you and I didn't "fall" in love with him until
after I started talking to you. You hold a much bigger part of my heart than anyone ever
will. I will kick myself in the ass for the rest of my life for not meeting you when I had
the chance, when it would not have mattered what HE thought. I guess I need to start
accepting the face that what has happened has happened and I probably should move on. But
it's just so easy thinking about what could have been and what should have been.

In an email you sent me earlier this week you said that You and I are a perfect match, Do
you truly believe that? I really do too...You and I have a lot of things in common, mostly
a great deal sexually but that's a plus right? lol :) But after talking so much to you
today, I also see that we have many differences too, but THAT MAKES ME LOVE YOU EVEN MORE!

Well, I'm sorry that you have to work this weekend, don't work too hard and think of me
often, you know I'll be thinking about you. I love you baby!

You responded
Mood:  happy
I saw your responses on here and I was so happy that you responded! Who's teasing who now, with all that talk about "under the table"? I read the responses earlier but I couldn't respond back b/c D was sitting beside me and he even said "i wanna see what you are doing" I was like geez! But now he's chilling in the recliner and probably going to sleep (HOPEFULLY)! I wish he would leave I would love to talk to you on the phone and hear your sexy voice. But at least i have you on aim talking to you now! WOOHOO! I LOVE YOU!

Thinking of you
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: glad the weekend is over
I've thought about you many times yesterday! I love checking my email and seeing your name show up in my new emails! I didn't do much, I did go to the Mall with my sister and my neice. It was so funny, my neice was meeting a friend of hers at the mall. This friend was male and he is supose to be her bestfriend's boyfriend, but while we were at the mall Jessica's bestfriend broke up with the guy. It was too cute, Jessica was getting all emotional b/c this little boy was upset over the break up and Jessica was in tears b/c he was upset. As we were getting ready to leave they hugged each other bye twice. Here's the kicker, the little boy is half white and half black. I would have thought my sister would have freaked out but she didn't. I think Jessica likes him b/c yesterday she told me that if her bestfriend wasn't dating him she would. I asked my sister what would she say or do, she said that she would be fine with it but her husband probably would freak out. I think she is wrong, b/c her husband is half Italian and half white. I didn't buy a lot at the mall, I did go into bath and body works and got some lotion and bath wash, it's Japanese Cherry Blossom! It smells good, and makes my skin very soft, I wish you could smell and feel it!
I didn't do much of anything else, just chilled out around the house. I did get online for a little while, I didn't see you online so I didn't stay on. Yea I was a little bummed out that I didn't get to talk to you on AIM but not upset. You have your life there and I know that you can't always be online. I can't wait until later on today so that I can at least talk to you through email. Oh wait, it's MLK day, I wonder if you have to work today? It's about time for me to get dress b/c we are headed back to D's Stepmoms house. (yea I'm not dressed, go figure, I've got on a gown and that's IT! Don't you wish you were here! lol) I will talk to you soon.
I love you!

Missing You
Mood:  down
Now Playing: NOTHING
Topic: Better Days
I talked to you earlier yesterday when I was at the park with my neice, Jessica! I was so happy to be talking to you, it really made my day. Then when I got off the phone with you my day pretty much turned to shit. My bestfriend called and wanted D and I to go eat at her house, I really was feeling it but I left the choice up to D. Since we didn't go over there Friday night we kind of felt obligated to go. Jessica started acting all bitchy on me, the child is OBSESSED with herself and I was just ready to take her home. On the way home D called me and told me what time we were to be at our friends' house and I was just in a pretty foul mood and I let him have it b/c I knew that when we go over to their house it's always way late when we get home and then I knew we had to go back to his stepmom's house to stay with her. I just went off on him about being tired of staying the night at her house and the day time at my parents house and I just need some stability in my life. The doctor keeps telling his stepmom that he will consider taking her trach out in 3 more months. He tells her this everytime she goes to him and I'm just tired of her. I'm getting to the point to just hear her cough or breath that it's irritating the hell out of me and I'm starting to resent her, and that's really not a good thing. You are my only stability. Even though I know that it won't be tomorrow or the next day when I meet you, that I can always count on hearing from you at least once a day, and when I hear from you more than once a day, it brightens my day! Thank you for being here for me and thank you for being You and being real with me! That's one of the MANY reasons why I love you so much! Until I talk to you again, Many hugs and kisses! Loving you always!

It's going to be a long weekend...
Mood:  sad
Topic: The Weekend
So, you've left work for today and since it's Friday, I'm sitting here wondering if I'm going to get to talk to you any this weekend. Last weekend sucked, b/c I was busy and not online a lot. This weekend I don't have plans as of yet but I never know when something will come up at the last minute. I am getting so use to talking to you everyday that the weekends seem to drag by! Hopefully this weekend won't be that bad though. I can't wait to talk to you again and I am so longing to talk to you on the phone where we don't have to rush to get off the phone. Just the sound of your voice and the sincerity in it melts my heart!

You're Going To Think I'm Crazy
Mood:  amorous
Topic: Why I am doing this...
Once you see this page you are probably going to think that I'm crazy as hell! I'm not though. There are times when I want to talk to you and it's just not possible, sending ecards get boring and redundant. So, I decided to start this, so when I feel the need to express something to you, I can just come here and write all I want to, and then you can read it when you get time. You see, there is so much I want you to know about me, actually I want you to know everything about me and I want to know everything about you! We've been talking for almost 9 years now and there is so much that we DON'T know about each other. You know that I Love you sooooooo much but there are more to my feelings than just the word LOVE! So this is my chance to put things down and let you know exactly what I'm feeling and when I'm thinking about you! This is my "Virtual You"!