Reflection

I maybe loud, obnoxious, disagreeable, spoiled, crass, carry around my bad habits, over talkative, cling on too people too much, not think about what I say or do, and over ambitious
I may not know much as an adult
But, I know thing about me,
I'd rather go to jail for murder than to let some man beat me like a dog
I'd rather by single than to let some guy be a loser and cheat on me with other women
I'd rather go to jail for my believes than to change them just to keep someone happy
I'd rather be hated for my mouth than to be not known by keeping quiet
I'd rather get in trouble for my actions in change than do nothing
I'd rather be a bitch and tell it like it is than to lie to someone to their face
I'd rather have a small group of friends that respect me than have thousands of fake friends
I refuse to get plastic surgery just to keep anyone happy
I refuse to use and abuse people for my own sick twisted games
I am not perfect
I refuse to be
I have thought about hurting and using people for revenge
But I'm glad I didn't do some
I'm not some counter-fit doll to be used and taken advantage of
I have no shame for what I do
I refuse to live on the safe side of life and have life of regret for not completing my goals
If people don't like me for being a free-spirited and talkative, fine!
That's their loss
I don't care about who or what people are
If they're respectful and caring, I'd hang with them
If they're rude and cruel, then it's no deal
I have dreams and goals to keep
I don't have time to worry about the small things in life such as popularity and shallowness
If it's one thing I have grown to hate, is insecurity
I had that once
I had been busy trying to impress others just to feel good about myself and have other people like me
It's didn't work
But now I have decided to banish it forever and be my free-spirited and wild self again
I want to fall down on my own and get back up again stronger than before
I may be forgiving and give people a second chance,
But I will not be a pushover
I sit between fire and water
I want to hold and keep both
I refuse to choose one over the other
I want to be decent yet risky all at once
But now, I do need to change and mature some to make myself for my future
Today, the little spoiled brat in me has died
I have decided to grow up and meet my goals!
I will be proud and take responsibility for my mistakes
I am not a little child in the head anymore!
Today, I am a mature adult.