I don't know how to begin. I'm still in shock. I got the call today, from Sunshine. I've kinda been waiting for it. I just didn't believe it would ever really come. She called today, to tell me you were gone. I knew it the second I heard her voice. I knew because that's the only reason she would have to call me. I can't seem to keep my head clear long enough to type a sentence or think a full thought. I know it's not my fault. It was your choice, and I'm not putting any blame on you. I just have to remember it's not my fault. I miss you, Lars. I miss you so much. You just needed to hold out for a year, just a year. I told you, just a year. Everything around me has a memory of you. I can't believe you're gone. I'm sorry I wasn't nicer when you called on Thanksgiving, I was just shaken. It was so out of the blue. I'm sorry, though. There are so many things I want to say. There were so many things I wanted us to do. I really never thought I would get that phone call. I didn't. I know I'm supposed to say, "I know you're in a better place now," and other crap like that. The truth is, it doesn't matter. I miss you. We miss you. I had been telling Auron we were going to visit you soon. You know, take a vacation to Florida, or where-ever you were. He gets so excited when I mention you. I know he's just a dog, but he loves you. I love you. I always have and always will. You will forever be my lobster.