Thought of the day
Recently I've been thinking quite a bit about my writing. Where I'm going, where I've been, that sort of thing. And I've been thinking about what kind of advice I would give to someone who is wanting to become a romance writer as well.
If you've done any studying of the craft you will hear tons of things about goals, motivation, and conflict or in romance writer lingo - GMC. And for those of you who don't know how to apply that to writing, goals are what your characters want, motivation is why they want it, and conflict is why they can't have it. That may sound simple but you'd be amazed at how many writers, including me, struggle or have struggled with this concept.
But that's not the point I want to make. Learning all the different things that make up a good romance story is valuable stuff to learn, but having a decent grasp on the mechanics of writing unfortunately is only part of the battle. Now you have to actually write something. There really isn't any right or wrong way to put the story down on paper, but the process can vary greatly from writer to writer. And learning the process that works for you can be as much of a struggle as learning the craft.
Sounds crazy I know. I mean how hard can it be to put words down on paper? You have your plot, you have your characters, you have your conflict, and you have the romance angle worked out - isn't that all you need?
Well, here's my story. I'll try to be brief, but this may take a bit of explaining, sorry.
About four years ago I decided that if I was going to pursue my dream of becoming a published writer I just needed to do it. The half measures that I'd been putting forth just wasn't enough. I knew the craft, knew the market, and I felt I had pretty decednt grasp on what I needed to do. I'd already finished one story but that was a few years prior, back when I had no clue what it took to write a marketable story. But I knew better now so it should be easier.
Wrong!
I'd get an idea, start writing, get a few chapters in, stop to review what I'd written, not like much of what I've writtten, make some changes, still wasn't satisfied, make more changes, still didn't like it, and eventually decide that I needed to approach this story from a different angle. Surely that will solve the problem.
Wrong again!
This went on and on and on for several months. And after about four months of continually tossing aside idea after idea I realized I had a problem. A big problem. I needed advice. I needed guidance. I needed more than the form rejections I'd been getting, but where could I get this advice, this guidance when I couldn't join any writer's group because of the cost. Contest fees could also run into some money, and having heard a number of conflicting stories pretaining to some writers experiences with contest, I was reluctant to go that route as well.
Where to turn?
Finally I heard about a pitch contest that didn't cost anything to enter. And it was for the line I wanted to write for. All you had to submit was two lines that summorized your story and the editor of the line would chose the best five. The five chosen would be given the chance to pitch online. The catch was the story was supposed to complete. I didn't have anything complete. But given the winners wouldn't be announced for a few weeks yet, and the actual pitch was scheduled for a few weeks after that surely I could have a decent headway on something by then. This had to be the push I needed.
Wrong!
I sent the idea in, and again couldn't get past the first few pages before I was questioning my premise. Maybe I should do this. Maybe it would work better if I took this approach. Didn't so and so once say that editors perfer this kind of story? I was hopeless.
The winners were finally announced and my name wasn't among them. Oh, well. That idea must of sucked and besides I'd already talked myself out of it anyway. But I still hadn't found a solution to my problem. A couple of weeks went by and I was still struggling to overcome my continual second quessing myself problem. Entering a contest hadn't given me the push I needed so now what?
The night before the pitch was scheduled I received an email. One of the winners of the pitch would not be unavailable on the day of the pitch, and since my entry was next in line - wow! Next in line? I was convinced it must have sucked! - would I be interested in doing a pitch? Interested? Of course I was interested!
My moment of happiness lasted all of about three minutes. Long enough for me to race into the bedroom to alert my husband, do the - Look! There's my name! - thing, and a brief happy, yeah, me, dance around the living room before reality and panic set in. One, I had no idea how to do a pitch, and two, gulp, I had NOTHING to pitch. I was so screwed.
Help!
Fortunately a newly published writer took pity on me and help me organize my pitch. Of course I had to search through my files to see if I still had the original idea because after it was initially passed on I had decided that it sucked and I thought I had deleted it. Thankfully I found it. Put together a pitch, hashed out something of an outline in case I was asked about certain plot points - remember, this story was supposed to have been complete before I entered the contest.
Yeah, this was not good.
The following day I put a bit more work into my outline hoping to have some kind of handle on the plot before the session. The pitches were to take place in an online chat room, and some computers for whatever reason couldn't access the chat rooms. I knew my computer could, but I wanted to make certain that it wasn't going to cop some sort of attitude at such a crucial time so I headed towards the room just to make double certain that I could get in.
I arrived in the chat room over an hour early and was surprised I wasn' t alone. What was up? Was everyone so anxious that they arrived an hour early? And then it hit me. Duh! The editor I was pitching to was on Eastern time not Central time like me. I nearly missed the pitch because I hadn't thought about the time difference. I felt like such an idiot. If I hadn't decided to make one last check I would have missed my only chance to pitch to a real editor. And my first real chance to finally achieve my goal of becoming a published author.
Well, my stupidity made me all that more uncomfortable about doing the session. I did it, and got a request for a full, but I was so ill at ease, and felt so completely flustered by the rush to get something together, by nearly missing the pitch because I couldn't tell time, I was so glad when it was all over. And I had a request for a story that was supposed to be finished and wasn't even begun.
What in the hell had I done?
Finally I set down to write. I wrote like eight chapters in like a week and a half, and was totally amazed. But remember this was only the second story I've ever written, and I wasn't all that sure about my process yet. I felt like my story was rambling around a bit and I was worried about getting further off track if I continued, so I decided it would be advisable to do a bit of editing.
And the whole process came to a screeching halt.
I decided I wanted to as fully as possible edit each chapter before moving on. It seemed like a good idea. That way when I finished I wouldn't have all that much to edit. But I hadn't counted on the continual back tracking making me lose all sense of forward momentum. Before I was like, hey, I'm on chapter four, and the next day, hey, I'm on chapter six. And now it was like eight days later and I'm struggling with chapter three.
Working on my story became a chore. I had to force myself to keep going. And all this time the continual - but this story was supposed to be finished weeks ago - haunted me. More pressure to finish, but I just couldn't make this story work. Weeks turned into months. I did the pitch towards the end of October and now Christmas had come and gone. Then New Year's. Finally February was here and I still hadn't finished. I was still struggling to 'edit' my story. I had managed to move beyond my initial eight chapters, but the process was slow. And painful.
Then finally one day it hit me. Duh! If I hate the continual editing so much, stop doing it! Finish writing the story, then edit. The clouds finally lifted. Finishing the story was a breeze. The end wasn't great, and I knew it. But so much time had past and I needed to move on. Within a few weeks I had finished the writing and editing, and sent it in. Time to wait.
It didn't get published. It didn't even get a personal rejection. I got a form rejection for my trouble, but I had learned a very valuable lesson. And no, it wasn't to not pitch on an incomplete manuscript. Without the stress of - this was supposed to be complete already- I probably wouldn't have finished it. What I learned was the imporatance of knowing what works for me. And the importance of continually moving forward.
I now write a few chapters, usually up to at least five, before I stop, then I do a bit of editing, maybe go through the chapter once or twice, and yes, I know it's not great yet, but it's better, so I move on. That is the key. That to me is probably one of the most important lessons I've learned and that is the advice I will always give to anyone who asks.
Just keep going. Give yourself permission to write crap, and just keep going.