Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: wanting memories
-- exlover:

me and hau'oli are not talking anymore. why?. i don't know -- but i don't really care. at least, not anymore by the way he's been treating me. i've tried my hardest to be cool with him n' all, but i always end up as his enemy at the end of the day, even if there were apologies being accepted. sure - i try to keep in touch. but when i do, he never replies. [examples]- it was my birthday a couple weeks ago- his fcuken friend [my friend too,, dan] had to call him and remind him about it. i called him to hang out cuz me and a couple people were gonna go to the movies- i just asked him and he gives me a tone saying hes cooking dinner for someone coming over that night. [that's acceptable becuz he's busy, but why'd you hafta yell?]. i emailed him asking him to please write back- no reply!. and all those are a couple weeks apart! so what does that tell you folks. kinda stupid for me to be sticking around huh?!. i think so. i mean yeah,, i wanna be friends with him. really good friends, cuz thats what he asked of me if it didnt work out for us. he even told me that i was like his best. yano?.

well, i guess you can just forget about it. cuz trust me, i've been doing my best to do so. if this is the way its gonna be for us, it doesn't hurt me a bit. i know,, amazing right?!. im just letting it go. there's been alot of rumors going around -- and their not hard to believe. it was his choice to ignore me like this, so saying sorry really doesn't mean anything anymore. he said he wanted to talk to me, and he can't even comment me on myspace anymore!. wtf. i have better things to do than wait on a reply from him. right?!. if it takes so long for him to do it, i guess all i can do is wait. right?!. gee- i need some advice. someone to talk to. i think i need a fcuken companion!.

i guess i'll be here waiting yano?. for him to notice. but he hasn't, and i don't think he ever will. oh wells then -- i have the rest of my life to find ways to keep it cool with him. now,, is just not the time. for all i know,, later will be alot better...