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Many of those who see me now think that I know a lot more about life than I've known before. I think I just know better now. If there was something I can change about the past, is to have gone through it with more confidence. There are a lot of things that I do regret, to be honest. But who are we to say that we have not done things in the past for a reason. I don't believe that there are ever any moments or events in our lives we have done without any thought or any logical reason that went behind it. We only have ourselves to blame for our mistakes and those who don't agree are lying to themselves.
I think that at this point I'm just so overwhelmed with thoughts in my head of the things I could have done better in my life and how I'm going to face my future. It seems that how ever prepared I have allowed myself to become, I still keep expecting more, and keep pushing myself to the edge of perfection that instead of getting there, I'm just pushing that edge further. What is it in all of us that drives us to think that to get ahead in life, we have to be better than everyone else, which is entirely impossible because we're never satisfied with what we do and who we are.
So do I know more or know better? If i were to ask my ego, I would say I know more. Part of growing up is that we acquire great knowledge. But in truth and in reality, there is no longer an original idea out there, we only have ideas that float around, getting interchanged and twisted with every generation that catches it. I know better, perhaps greater than what I have known before.
I know better to apply what I have learned in better use.
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